4 - No amount of psychologizing will cure you (Patreon)

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“I’m home—”

Both of my parents work and both of them are often still at work when I get home.
　When that happens, I do what I need to do during this time so that I can go to sleep as soon as possible. Doing homework, cleaning, preparing a bath, etc... I usually do everything I can and then take a break.
　All three of us can gather together to eat dinner, but until that time I'm usually active.
　It can be said that I am tiring my body to stay longer with Hiuri in the dream. At the very least, it is only since the night dream started that I started doing this much household chores.

“““Itadakimasu”””

Once my parents are back, we quickly eat dinner.
　After eating dinner, I immediately take a bath, put on my pajamas, and go into the futon.
　At first I was worried that my daily rhythm would be disrupted since I slept this long, but my body seems to be resting properly while I'm playing in the dream, and I wake up refreshed in the morning. If that’s not the case, I wouldn't be able to play with Hiuri every night.

“Phew... Good night.”

I set my alarm and close my eyes.
　If I set up a stimulus that can wake up a sleeping person, I will be able to wake up properly when the time comes. I tend to forget the time when I'm playing with Hiuri, so after I was almost late once, I started setting the alarm like this. If Hiuri wakes up first, I'll notice the time too, so there's no need for an alarm then.

“Hiuri... isn’t here yet huh?"

When I open my eyes, there is the usual white room.
　There were supposed to be rows of cherry trees here from when I woke up this morning, but every time I wake up here, this room goes back to this white space. When Hiuri is not here, I often make preparation to this place first.

“What should I go with tonight... maybe the beach?”

It's currently about mid-July. We saw cherry blossoms yesterday, but that was because we couldn't see them together in spring. In this season, the beach is probably more natural.
　I picture the beach in my mind. The blue sea, white sand, white clouds... Yeah, it looks nice.
　The sea spread out in front of me, just as I had pictured.

Just then, Hiuri arrives.

“Good evening, Kazuki-kun.”
“Yaa, Hiuri.”

Hiuri looks around and checks what kind of place it is today.

“It's the beach today, isn't it?”
“Yeah. I think it's perfect for this season.”

Although it’s sunny, the sunlight isn't too bright and doesn't burn our skin.
　Being able to look directly into the sun without damaging our eyes, what a mysterious sensation. But since it's a dream, it's easy to bring mysterious phenomena like this. The phrase ‘Because it’s a dream’ is incredibly convenient.

“We’re going together aren’t we?”
“Yeah... Is that what you were talking about when you checked with me during the day?”
“That's right. The me in real life was worried about whether Kazuki-kun would come or not. It's the result of my daily effort.”

It's interesting because even though memories of the dream never carry over into real life, memories of real life carry over clearly into the dream.

I shouldn’t talk about Hiuri's personal things just because she has said it in the dream when she hasn’t said it in real life, so it’s necessary for me to be careful about that.

“Hm—...”
“What’s wrong, Hiuri?”

Hiuri looks a little troubled, then turn to me and says,

“Today, I’d rather have anything other than the beach.”
“That's fine, but... why?”
“Because the beach means swimsuit, right? My swimsuit... you should see it yourself for the first time in real life.”

Apparently, since we’ll be able to go to the beach in a while, I should leave it at that until then.
　I'd be lying if I said I’m not curious about Hiuri's swimsuit, so I’m looking forward to it a little. Of course, in real life, Hiuri and I are just friends, so she probably isn’t going to show it to me, but I think it’s okay if I just sneak a look.

“...That’s what you might be thinking, but girls are especially sensitive to stares, you know?”
“...I’m sorry.”

This is what she told me since we became lovers, apparently, girls are quite aware of boys’ gazes.
　Even if you look at them from the side and think they won’t find out, it seems they can tell where you were looking. Girls are amazing...

“Don't worry. I'll show you properly.”
“Really?”
“Yes. I'll make sure to properly pray so that I’ll show it to you.”

Hmm, showing her swimsuit means she would openly come in front of me right? but would it really go well? In real life, Hiuri and I are just friends, there’s no doubt people around us would make fun of us if that happens.
　But Hiuri is full of confidence. Does she have other plans than praying for it?

“With that being the case, let's leave the beach for later. As expected, it would be difficult for the two of us to be alone in real life, so let’s play together here after the first unveiling at the beach.”
“Yeah, let’s. I'm starting to look forward to the beach all at once.”

This is my true feeling. It goes without saying that I am looking forward to Hiuri's swimsuit the most. It may sound disgusting from a girl's point of view, but I think all boys are the same in that they look forward to their girlfriend’s swimsuit.

There should be boys and girls in this grade who are actually dating, so it might not seem strange if we blend in with them.
　Well, even if I miss seeing it there, at worst, it can be resolved by having her show it here.

“Then I’ll stop with the beach...”

I picture the next landscape.
　A big castle, a sprawling fantasy castle town, beautiful chandeliers... When I open my eyes, we are in a large banquet hall with a large balcony. Hiuri is dressed in a dress that suits her.
　Even if I don't know her size, if I visualize Hiuri wearing the clothes, I can dress her properly.

“Please give me your hand, princess.”
“...!”

Even while blushing, Hiuri takes my hand.
　Hiuri likes being treated like a princess. However, I'm not used to the move of a Prince at all, so I learned them for Hiuri's sake. I don't have the courage to do it in real life, but in the dream where no one is around, if it’s just escorting Hiuri, I can easily do it.

“Fufufu, this is nice. This kind of thing.”
“You’re beautiful, Hiuri.”
“...Geez, stop it already. It makes me want to kiss you.”

By the way, according to dream Hiuri, if I kiss her two days in a row, real life Hiuri will explode.
　How?

“This music, is this Kazuki-kun’s?”
“Yeah, I borrowed a CD that seems good and listened to it.”

Also, I listened to a lot of music that was posted on video sites. Not only ballroom music, but also a lot of other things like samba and jazz.
　I think I've probably learned the most about this kind of wide-ranging trivia since I started dating Hiuri.
　After dancing, we drink juice together on the balcony. Actually, champagne would be nice in this atmosphere, but I've never drank champagne before, so the juice is just apple cider.

“...Kazuki-kun, you are always willing to accommodate me, but sometimes you can do what you like, you know?”
“I do what I like quite a lot though...”

Even the clothes Hiuri is wearing now, I chose it because I wanted her to wear it.

“This is a dream anyway, so... you can, umm... attack me, you know?”

Hiuri blushed and looked at me with moist eyes. Huh? I'm pretty sure it doesn't contain alcohol.

...That's right. If I can choose Hiuri's clothes, I can also make her naked. However, as you’d expect, I don't have the guts to do that, so I would never imagine it.

“You don’t, want to?”
“No! That’s not it, it’s not like that!”

There's seriously no alcohol in it, right?
　At the very least, I've never drank alcohol in my life, so I can't create alcohol here... but maybe I subconsciously thought of something like wanting Hiuri to get drunk?

In this world, the first to be realized is what I consciously think. It shouldn’t realize my unconscious thoughts.
　I don't think Hiuri is drunk, because I don't want her to get drunk, but Hiuri's behavior is clearly different from her usual one so I'm confused.

“I've heard that a lot of high school students, umm, do it these days.”
“Hiuri, there is something wrong with you today. Are you okay?”

She’s definitely weirder than usual. It's like she is drunk or caught a cold... a cold!?
　I put my hand on Hiuri's forehead. It was definitely hot.

“Hiuri, the ball is over. It's time to take a break.”
“What's that, you got a problem with me?”

Hiuri puffs out her cheeks, her eyes moist. It's cute, but it's definitely out.
　I erase the castle and change Hiuri’s clothes to fluffy pajamas. Then just like that, I create a log house and a bed, and lay Hiuri there.

“What are you doing—?”
“Geez... if you have a cold, you should just tell me.”
“I haven't caught a cold—!”

Mental matters can be dealt with even in the dream, but there’s nothing I can do about physical matters here.
　There's no point in giving her cold medicine here. So, I just pray in my mind to get Hiuri to sleep.

When I do something directly to Hiuri, it seems that Hiuri can resist it to some extent, but I don’t think Hiuri can resist it right now.
　Sure enough, Hiuri falls asleep immediately. It's strange to sleep in a dream, but it's better to get some rest like this.

I make a chair appear, interfere with Hiuri's memories a bit, and generate a book from Hiuri's memories. Because I have to use Hiuri's memory to materialize a book I've never read.
　I hope she gets better tomorrow... I spend time until morning reading that rather difficult book.

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(T/N: If I use different words, it probably means the raw is different. Like the one above, ‘make something appear’, ‘generate’, ‘materialize’ have different kanji. There’s also ‘create’ which has another kanji.)

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