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tfw when all the work you killed yourself to do didn't matter in the end
This is never ending and everyone, including the people handing off work to me, have it just as bad as I do. We're all in it together but it's still really hard.
Thank you very much for your patience during my radio silence these past few weeks, but I have had literally no energy to do anything - my creative well is completely dry. Like, if it could make a sound, it would be the puffy dry cough of a dying car. I have nothing to give recently.
To give you some context: my therapist has told me that they make a point of giving me no homework because so much of my self worth is tied into my productivity, and I am very hard on myself if I don't end up doing something on time or correctly or well enough.
But this week, they did give me homework: talk to someone about taking time off.
It still feels like I'm seeking approval or permission from people to do things, but I'm telling you this because I just need you to know that I'm not dropping off the face of the earth. I'm committed to this - it's just a really rough patch I'm in right now.