Life Update // mental health (Patreon)

My mental health has been pretty shit lately, and once it's in the red, it's a vicious cycle. I have been sleeping in, doubling my coffee and chocolate intake, binge watching netflix, and ignoring any kind of self work.

All these things above are the easy way out for me. They require the least effort with the most reward, that quick fix.

I've always opted for the easy way out for as long as I can remember. I can blame it on childhood trauma, or I can admit that I'm just lazy.

I've been searching for the 'magic pill' for a long time. The one thing that's suddenly going to get me out of bed at 6 am to the gym and make all my bad thoughts go away over a bowl of nutritional, sugar-free cereal.

But I've come to realise it's not just one thing and never will be one thing. It's everything. It's catching the bad thoughts before they seep through the cracks. It's getting out of bed even though everything in your body is telling you to stay. It's staying in the shower once the water has turned cold. It's the little changes to your daily habits.

It's practice.

So even though I've lost any kind of self-discipline in my life right now, I know I can get it back. Because just as we take a break from anything, it simply takes practice to get it back.