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Hello my loves.

I just wrote a little thing for social media and it made me so weepy I wanted to share it over here as well. I know we thinged this piece with Luke recently - but….it’s so good and it’s #worldpianoday!!! 🎹♥️🎉

So: a word.

Maybe someday I’ll play a piano to a stadium of 50,000 people like Elton John, Billy Joel. Maybe someday I’ll finally get my Beethoven down and play Carnegie Hall in a black dress.

Who knows.

But to be able to play piano in spontaneous and perfect harmony like this - with a fellow pianist - surrounded by friends and food and kids and wine and dogs….this is what success feels like to me.

If you do it right: this is how it ends. You get to do THIS.

I have been playing (and struggling with) pianos all over the world for 40+ years. i had a difficult relationship with the instrument when I was growing up. I didn’t like practicing, and I didn’t have the skills - or patience, perhaps - for sight-reading. I often felt like a failure.

I’ve learned to overcome all of that. The way I play music is the way I play music. I no longer let “good/real piano player” and “bad piano player” exist as a binary in my mind. We are all just playing.

And nothing has brought me pleasure like this eleven minutes I spent improvising with my piano-brother Luke Gajdus on a mountaintop in New Zealand a few months ago, the day before I flew home to America.

I was so full of hard feelings. Joy. Sorrow. Ambivalence. Confusion. Gratitude - so much gratitude.

The piano caught it all, held it all.

The film was released here via patreon. Had I not had patrons, I probably wouldn’t have made this film. I am always indebted to them for inspiring and cheerleading me.

You made this with me. You are holding me in this moment.

Luke and I made this entire piece up as we went along.

But it took us decades to be able to play like this. We speak a language. Piano-ese.

Play for the joy.

Play for the joy.

Sing cause it’s obvious.

Sing with your strings, with your drums, with your hands, with your brush.

It doesn’t matter how or where or when or why.

Just sing.

I love you all. I’m reading comments for new r hour or so, then again in the morning.

Althing tomorrow (probably). I’m working on it.

xx

AFP

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AMANDA PALMER & LUKE GAJDUS - Neither Here Nor There

Filmed live on January 25th, 2022 at Bob's Cove, Te Waipounamu, Aotearoa New Zealand. Host: Simone Flight Cameraman: Ben Farry Song composed by Luke Gajdus & Amanda Palmer This undertaking was supported and funded by over 10,000 gorgeous art-loving patrons at patreon.com/amandapalmer. A portion of the the funds from this project will be given to recently-needed flood relief efforts run by Māori Iwi/locals. If you want to help, wherever you are in the world: please do so here: https://www.manaakimatakaoa.com/floodrelief I tell the whole story of this project (with more photos) here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/79051495 Most important: Luke is a full-time piano busker who I met out in the streets of Queenstown, on the South Island of Aotearoa New Zealand. If you'd like to learn more about Luke's work (and see some more of his beautiful outdoor piano videos), please go to: https://lukegajdus.com/. Leave him a tip. It'd mean a lot. A copy of the audio recording was sent to digital-download level patrons, you can follow the link and download the recording here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/79051495 Kia kaha koutou. Arohanui. -AFP

Comments

Jeremy Sliwoski

As in life, you're not given 88 keys to play with only ten fingers.

Anonymous

Damn, that is just gorgeous. The years and years and callouses and struggles for motivation and discipline to get to a point where you can improvise like that, and with someone else to boot, well. Thank you.

Anonymous

AH! This beauty. I feel this so much. I've just finished recording my very first very own banjo improvisation over a friend's song, and it's far from perfect but it's undeniably GOOD, and it actually expresses what I feel. What is this magic? And why can you dance to it? I love you, Amanda, I love Luke, I love the piano, keep channeling the flow. <3

Anonymous

I remember last year in a liveshow I asked if you ever sit at the piano "for fun" or outside of practising for shows. And it was a pretty sad time, and you said it's been a long time. It's nice to see this piano relationship grow again. I don't play any instruments but I can see what they do for people. Looking forward to your lighthouse video!

Anonymous

I have recently been rediscovering my identity as a musician. I took some piano lessons when I was young, quit. Picked up the guitar around 13 hoping to play music at campfires or be in a band…. Never really got there. But I’ve only ever temporarily put them down, and each time I picked it back up, despite being out of practice, I had learned more along the way; taking in different music and information and quietly (unknowingly) assimilating it. I sang at my fathers funeral earlier this month and it brought so much connection with family that I’m far from and so am just a little less well connected by default. And tonight I’m in a real show with other people; I’m playing guitar, singing, and somehow this is exactly what I have needed. Thank you, Amanda!

Anonymous

Thank you. For some reason this made my eyes all wet!

Laura Wellner

I truly love this music. I listen to this and the other New Zealand song every Sunday morning. They're on a playlist with Zoe, Jherek, and Beethoven. Good company!

Anonymous

Achingly beautiful. I cried thru most of it. Thanks.

Anonymous

Thank you for being you..I love you so much, your beautiful inside and out

Anonymous

Shit I forgot to say thank you to the camera person! You did great at capturing that moment for us! Thank you thank you thank you

Anonymous

This is just positively STUNNING! Kuddos to all involved for making this happen. It just took my breath away! 🥰

Molly McEnerney

Just beautiful. This is what life is about.

Anonymous

Finally had the chance to watch and listen. Thankyou for this. It was perfect and full of joy. You all did an amazing job with this. Thankyou thankyou thankyou

Ashleigh M. Ferreira-Bartlett

Listening to this while I make cookies from scratch and ponder alone v. lonely. Why does it feel right to me that I could cry absolutely at any moment at any thing I say or any one ever says that matters that much or any thing I feel so passionately for- chest ACHING like demonstrably worse now while a little more quiet but ever present in a foundation of...like, I've explained to friends in the past in just whatever label it may find but I always used this analogy that my mind was running like a river but even when we were talking, when we were creating speaking interacting bleeding breeding breaTHING I had an undercurrent of thought that didn't always align. What I feel now is we need reparenting. But fuck I won't keep going off ITS JUST ALSO HELPING WHILE GORDON RAMSEY YELLS AT SOMEONE NOT ME IN THE BG Three seconds of scanning for edit and I think I'm saying or trying to say.. I think it's not my undercurrent anymore it's my fucking main water supply and we are learning to be symbiotic and it is absolutely HARD and scary and seems like I don't trust myself.......etc..... but I think it's good work

Julie Dean

Beautiful! And, your words are inspirational. As a teacher/coach/guide to many adult singers who are just beginning voice exploration, I'm always telling them that we're just playing. Get in the sandbox - there is no good/bad - just sing/play!

Anonymous

Truly incredible moment! That was a gift!

Anonymous

Beautiful & Inspiring. Thank you

Laura Damone

So beautiful it touched my heart Amanda. This is the second time I listened to this piece you wrote. ❤️☮️🌹