the hangover after the ride...and nick cave (some voiceMessageLove & textMessageLove) (Patreon)

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hello my dear loves

the ride continues.....

so my day is already made because i woke up to an email from nick cave in my inbox telling me that he thinks the album cover art is "amazing". so i felt like my day could just be fucking done right there...i was ready, at 8 am, to just pour myself a glass of wine, pat myself on the back and go to fucking bed.

i don't know if you guys remember, or read it, but i was deeply affected by nick cave's last album, and the incredible documentary, "one more time with feeling" about the making-of-the-record that went along with it. i wept so deeply watching that film when it came out (it was shown for ONE DAY ONLY, i drove to fucking albany to see it....i am. a. fan.)

it tied so many things together for me. grief. art. permission. what we ARE and AREN'T allowed to write about...and how.

it's a good time to go back and read it, even if you've already read it.

upshot: when nick cave's teenage son tragically died, nick went INTO the art, not out. he let his tears spray everywhere, messily, stopped caring about the "product", and just....made. made what he had to make. brought his crew and his band and his fans along with him.

let them hold him in his grief. found his way out through the art door.

sound familiar.... 

https://www.theguardian.com/music/2016/sep/10/nick-cave-skeleton-tree

anyway.

y'all.

i wrote that article BEFORE having a miscarriage while working on this record.

and nick...he guided me, he helped me a lot. with his attitude. with his...grace. with his honest, honest, honest songs. have you LISTENED to "skeleton tree"? please go now.

i'd always been a nick cave fan, from tender age 15, but this was a new kind of fandom, a kinship, a resonance. like....we were growing and breaking at the same time.

while i was in LA this past september, living monastically and recording this album...i put on "skeleton tree" almost every morning. and i would literally make my breakfast, have a good cry, remind myself what was possible, and then go into the studio to meet john and record piano and vocals.

nick was in LA at the same time i was, recording a new bad seeds record in malibu an hours' drive away. we emailed a little bit. it comforted me, knowing they were there across the water, doing their own version of what i was doing. in a studio, trying to put truth on tape.

nick. 

so anyway....getting that email meant more to me than anything you can imagine.

i cannot think of another human being on the planet who's approval and compliments about the album cover could possibly mean more to me. maybe if frida kahlo came back from the dead.

it's also funny because nick cave's LAST-last record, "push the sky away" keeps coming up in team meetings because it's the only other record cover we know about recently with full frontal nudity and everyone's always like....what did nick cave do about censorship?

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AND SO THEN

here's my morning ramble. i want to officially call these Morning Rambles, but then...what happens when i start doing them at 11 pm? and 3 pm? they need a better name. someone suggested Voice Letters. Voice Messages is so bland. i might have to hit a thesaurus. for now...

I AM TRYING A NEW THING and using patreon's EMBEDDED AUDIO FEATURE.

please please try it and tell me what you think and ALSO here's a soundcloud stream/download link for you...

https://soundcloud.com/amandapalmer/voiceblog-feb-13-2019/s-s5UgP

 in case the patreon-embed-thing is annoying or doesn't work (will it let you download?)...tell me everything. really, COMMENT, i am reading it all.

and if you want to READ the voice ramble, along with the entire archive of voice rambles, transcribed lovingly by alex, CLICK HERE 

i am loving this morning ramble so much, it's making me feel so much less stressed and so much more connected to you all, and reading your comments is wonderful. it's making me really...happy. i just wish the commenting system here was more....good. bitch and moan.

it's deifnitely easier for me to use the patreon-feature but it isn't a huge deal to use soundcloud, so if that works better for y'all, i'll do what you need.

YESTERDAY WAS AMAZING, eh. "the ride" is officially out....people love it...i am crying....everyone is crying...it's all pretty beautiful.

and an ask...

if you still haven't heard The Ride...go listen to it on the NPR podcast so we can send them some traffic and love. and TWEETER and FACEBOOKER the link out to your friends and groups n things. the link to the whole episode is here:

https://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2019/02/12/693503133/new-mix-amanda-palmer-pkew-pkew-pkew-the-budos-band-more

and the tweet is here if you wanna share it without thinking much:

https://twitter.com/allsongs/status/1095356686448119810

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i'll have a post for you later today about more tour/merch/related stuff....WE NEED TO PICK A TOUR POSTER and that's coming later today...and stuff about the listening parties is soon to be revealed.

a coupe other momentary tidbits:

today i dropped by the central promotions office for WOODSTOCK 50 - where they are putting together the official 50th anniversary celebration of the 1969 festival.

i've gotten to know michael lang a little bit....mr. woodstock. the man who made it happen back in 1969.

....i sign and give books to a lot of people, and i almost never photograph what i sign...but i thought this one was worth posting.

i mean, this man made...woodstock....happen.

that's...a thing.

like, WOODSTOCK. not the town. THE THING. WHERE JIMI HENDRIX PLAYED THE STAR-SPANGLED BANNER ON ACID. THAT WOODSTOCK.

if you haven't watched that in a while, you should.

drop some acid in your coffee first

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TKAwPA14Ni4

so here...

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what else

oh

 after hearing about in on NPR....i'm reading kate bush's collection of lyrics.

just on the printed page, without voice....holy fuck she's amazing....introduction by novelist david mitchell (who wrote cloud atlas and has a massive kate bush boner)

gorgeous hardbound touchable, lovable book...

i love you all 

see you soon....later today, even.

i'm readin'

x

a

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