On the situation with my hand. UPDATE (Patreon)

I  honestly should wait until tomorrow to write this but I know some of  you are waiting for the pic of Carolina I said was for tonight. I'm  late, I went to the therapist this afternoon, she lives close but she  gets carried away on this so it took most of my day on it. I have been  lying, I said I recover part of the feel on those fingers, I didn't, I  just wanted to buy some time while I did some treatments with the  therapist, people was worried about me and I didn't want that. 

To keep things basic, she recommended we get a professional opinion, called a doctor for an appointment tomorrow at 9 am. 

He  will determine what's is the situation with my muscles and nerves.  Basically, she says it must be cubical tunnel syndrome, but we need  confirmation. Worst case I would need an operation, I won't use the hand  for a while and will need to take a period of rest and rehabilitation. 

Now  she made it sound like it wasn't a big deal, but I still have in memory  what was the last operation I got and the recovery wasn't a neat  experience. Sure it was totally different but still. 

This  is what I do, this is my work 24/7, there isn't a day I don't draw. And  yeah, those who say I should rest are right. But this is the only thing  I have and i feel I need to fight it. I want to do better, I want to surpass a lot of people that I admire, webcomic authors, actual workers at marvel or DC, that bastard of criminalkiwi  who is always awesome. And I feel that if I don't push myself they will  only keep staying ahead of me and when the time comes... I will only  stay behind. Not good enough to get a job or keep ahead with my  projects.

I want to be better. I want to be stronger. I need to improve.

Well,  depending on tomorrow I will tell you on this. If it turns out I need  surgery and need recovery then I will have to find a way to close the patreon  for a while. Either that or tell you guys to drop out and come back in a  month. The last option is that I try and do work with the pen tool, it  would reduce pics considerably but I think if I keep it simple to two  characters I could have a pic every 4 or 5 days. 

I'll post about this on deviantart  tomorrow too, better to not alarm everybody just letting you guys know  on it because I think you deserve to know, after all, you are paying for  a service here. You deserve to know if I aint capable of doing it anymore.

UPDATE: I need the surgery. It will be around a million and 200 thousand bolivares, which is around 250 dollars. Money is not the problem, thanks to you guys. Is that im nervous something could go wrong. Still, I need to get some exams done before the operation. Im so scare for this. Is my hand, what i work with. I dont want to risk it but is worst if I dont.