one big letting go. (Patreon)

(this one was from a few weeks ago)

one big letting go.
letting go. letting go. letting go.

i don’t know how... i don’t know how to... what? anything. sleep. smile. cry. let it out. let it go. move through it. no, maybe i know how, but it all just feels like i am incapable. my body feels like the biggest weight. my aches and sadness and grief feel like more than i could ever bare but yet here they are. my fear feels like a scary dream i can’t wake up from. my resentment and anger feel like a poison in my blood, seeping deeper and deeper.