vocal meditation and a check in (Patreon)

hi friends <3

i was digging through some of the files i've been working on in the past month and came across another one of my stream-of-consciousness vocal meditations, "a major," that i thought i'd share. so here that is :) 

the past few weeks since finding out we lost the pregnancy have been quite a rollercoaster, though i'm happy to report i now feel like a human again and am vaguely remembering what it is to be me and live life. hooray! the clouds are lifting and the energy is shifting and i'm starting to feel okay here and there. i can still feel the shadow and pain of it all lurking right behind me, but if i move carefully it can stay there most of the time. every once in a while i let it come out and i feel it in its fullness, and each time there comes a little healing, too. 

i've been doing a deep cleaning and purging of things in my home to keep my mind occupied, and i've come across so many letters and photos and keepsakes from you all from over the years. photos from kinacons past (yes, that was a thing!), tours, meet and greets. it has been such a reminder of what a rich and incredible past 10 years it's been, thanks to the beautiful and generous and amazing humans i have crossed paths with along the way. and boy has my hair gone through some iterations during that time! 

i also came across so many reminders of my time pre finding you all. flyers for coffeeshop gigs, old cds i burned straight from my laptop and gave away at open mics, notebook upon notebook of half-written songs i wrote in college. and in seeing all these things again and remembering those very early days, i am reminded how incredibly fortunate i was to have stumbled upon my little corner of the internet when i did, and that somehow new wonderful humans continue to cross my path and become part of this little online family to this day. what a gift. what a gift. what a gift. 

thank you for coming along on this journey with me, for supporting the creation of my music, for sharing your stories with me and hearing mine. sending you all so much love and gratitude <3

xo

kina

p.s. i'm sorry i won't be able to pull off our coffee date hangout this month. hoping my head is on straight enough that we can hop back in next month <3

p.s. sorry if there are typos here! i usually force jesse to do a typo check before publishing anything but i'm gonna give him a break this one time. :)

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p.p.s. i just caught a typo and it is that i used “p.s.” twice in a row OOPS