⛥ July Q&A (Patreon)

Good morning everyone! Ok, so it's been morning for a little while now. And by that I mean afternoon, because when it's morning in Germany I do my evening exercise and go to bed. It serves me quite well being nocturnal in the summertime, because I sleep through the insufferable heat and it cools off significantly at night time. In the mornings (afternoons), though, iced coffee helps combat heat exhaustion. There's so much to talk about since last month! I will be writing a whole separate post about what I learned in self-isolation, but this one is for all of you who have asked me questions this month and I must say I was delighted to see so much curiosity! Thank you so much for this opportunity to speak about myself and allow you to get to know me better. Here it goes...

Was there a special reason behind your parents decision to emigrate to Germany when you were a child? I believe the deciding factor was poverty. My parents grew up in the USSR which I just barely dodged so don't know much about what that was like. All I know is that when I was very small, we lived at my grandparents' (father's side) house and my parents weren't able to find an apartment anywhere. They both worked but still made very little money, resulting in me being alone the majority of the time, with only my grandma watching me all day, though she, too, had responsibilities to tend to. I believe some of our relatives on my mother's side (big family, her mother wouldn't stop having kids until she literally ran out of eggs) had already moved to Germany prior and found jobs and made good money. We followed suit and soon enough the entire family on my mother's side relocated to this land of plenty where everyone had work, housing and accommodations. Some hard factory work, some low paying service work, but compared to the standard of living back in Russia it was pure luxury. My mother eventually became homesick and went back to the town I was born in, moving into her sister's house after her mother-in-law passed. But everyone else stayed. 

Have you ever watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer? Yes, I used to love that show! Everything about it just hit the spot for 12 yo me.

Ally if you were in a movie would you rather play a villain or heroine? I’d also like to know if there’s some specific villain or heroine you’d like to portray. It's funny you should ask that, because I've always seen myself as more of an expendable B-roll that no one pays attention to. But with the sheer number of people branding me a devil worshipper for how I choose to dress, I guess I'm more likely to be a villain by proxy. Like one of those completely misunderstood villains who are actually good and just painted in a bad light because they don't happen to conform to some arbitrary hero's storyline. Oh wait, there was a word for it. The scapegoat. I can play that because I am that! Maybe a rival to one of the main characters on a good day. Or a comedic relief as sometimes I feel like I exist purely for people to laugh at. If I had a choice I would prefer to play someone who has embraced their dark side and doesn't care what people think. Does that make a villain or rather a hero? I think that depends on the judge. 

If you and Jack could go on a 2 week vacation to anywhere in the world, where would you go? Somewhere with clear, warm ocean water and no jellyfish. A tropical island? Jack says he'll go anywhere with me and my perfect vacation includes a lot of swimming but I freeze easily and I have pretty severe Cnidophobia making me very concerned about jellyfish. They're like the wasps of the ocean. Wasps are my mortal enemies.  

What are your favourite cookies and can I steal the recipe?  https://www.the-girl-who-ate-everything.com/my-big-fat-chewy-chocolate-chip-cookie/ 

You said in a previous post that you've closed your Etsy shop for good but if we wanted to get some more protection oil we should shoot you a message. Should I rather do it on Etsy or here? Patreon or email is fine. Quite a few of you have been asking about a protection oil restock lol. I can ship to Germany just fine but international shipping now is very expensive due to policy changes so I didn't think anyone would want to pay more in shipping than the protection oil itself. For those of you who are ok with that I'll figure something out.

What is your most treasured memory? My most treasured memory was when I connected with Jack for the first time. It's not just how he accepted me for all that I am, not just how happy he makes me, it's so much more than that. As we got to know each other, we just always had this deep intimacy that I've never known before. We connected on a deep soul level that made all previous relationships seem like fleeting crushes. We knew we were meant to be together, as we have been for a long time. There was this unshakable feeling that we had been married in spirit long before we ever met. We were to each other what we had been missing all life and didn't even know. Unraveling that and feeling like for the first time someone just sees me as I am was the best thing that happened in my life. I truly believe he is the only person who can truly see me when most people are fixated on some kind of biased projection of me and treat me according to their assumptions. Not a day goes by that I'm not thankful that I have him again in this lifetime. It's the kind of love that can't be broken up for it extends far beyond the physical and the mortal. 

Your current favorite hard beverage? Margaritas! I also really like pina colada but margaritas are perfect for summer, very refreshing and the tequila goes straight to my brain. 

Ally you are quite good at Hypnosis so my question is have you ever studied hypnotherapy? No, but I'm told fairly frequently that I have a natural talent for it. I put it down to my calming aura and the fact that the majority of people find me inherently trustworthy. I wish I myself had a fraction of the trust that other people afford me lol. I read a book written by a hypnotherapist once and so I know the process of guiding someone into hypnosis but I am definitely not licensed, have no experience and my roleplays are definitely "entertainment only" - but if it works, it works. I know that I go in with the purest intentions to soothe you and change your life for the better and whether you "go under" or just fall asleep, this energy will end up affecting your brain. Of that I am proud.
 

These were all your questions this month and I hope my answers have been satisfying! If you were left with more questions as a result of this, the next post will appear in the first week of August. I will go on to finish my laundry that's soaking in the shower as I am sick and tired of having to leave my house in a rush while it's still hot just to do chores before the country inconveniently shuts down. I'm serious. I will hand wash my sweaty clothes for the comfort of not having to produce more sweaty clothes trying to clean all my sweaty clothes first thing after rolling out of bed! After all the shopping I had to do by myself to stock my fridge when my carer was on sick leave, I deserve that blessed hermit lifestyle. 

Stay safe everyone and remember to drink your water. I'll talk to you in my next post