Patching You Up ❤️ (Patreon)

I've been clean for at least 7 months. I've fought the urge to self-harm countless times since the last time, which I don't remember exactly when it was - but Jack says it was last year. Some may say that's a big deal and I should be proud of myself. I don't really think so. A lot of things seem like a big deal to others, like remembering a traumatic experience, being mentioned in an article in a popular magazine, having X subscribers. Out of these things, remembering things I had previously shut out means the most to me by far. It kind of makes me uncomfortable when people acknowledge my progress because all my life people have invalidated my suffering and people saying they're proud of me is essentially validating where I came from which I'm kind of still in denial about because acknowledging your own pain does nothing but get you called attention-seeking and whiney these days and get people to tell you to stop being a victim when in reality you have been victimized and it has been awful and unbearable and this sentence is way too long. This video is about validating your feelings and showing you the loving care you deserve. Through this roleplay, I'm trying to give you something you need and may not know that you need. I put a trigger warning in the beginning just in case but I'm hoping for this virtual experience to trigger a positive emotional release so you can begin to heal and possibly seek out experiences like this in real life. Wherever you're at regarding mental and physical health, I hope you get better - for your own sake. Not because you owe it to someone to function perfectly. Because you've suffered enough.

//Ally