work and calmness (Patreon)

It's a rainy night. Calm and tranquil. This other world I described in my video titled Sounds of the Night is sucking me in. It makes my heart long for permanence and I wish it could always be this peaceful - I... could always be this peaceful. But the day is harsh and people unforgiving. If only the night could last forever...

I had to take a little break from all the stress near the end of the month. I've been playing the Sims and taking care of awfully unpleasant things. Summertime has made me want to go out more. Unfortunately, there just isn't that much of a window between "way too hot to go outside" and "everything is closed" which makes it hard to find places to go that aren't dead. I wish someone opened a real life midnight cafe! The only thing I can do by the time I get ready for my day is get drinks and I'm staying away from those because between us all we've been having quite a bit. I managed to send some etsy orders out and will get started on your rewards next. 

Some projects that are due this month is your highest voted crystals video - I haven't yet decided if I want to use my citrines or black tourmalines, the Libra sex signs reading because I'll probably end up doing that one as a filler when I can't think of anything else to do... And other than that I haven't come up with much. I've been attracted to metal and black and I'm thinking of a way to make that into a coherent video that's not just "hey guys I'm gonna be tapping on these random things for 20 minutes"... Definitely trying to go back to black. Ignoring the hot pixels, I just need more darkness in my life. So back to black, or at least monochromatic... SEANCE. Has anybody here ever actually seen a seance ASMR? Because fuck yes I'm doing this. Just picture it for a moment - attentive silence, whispering, soft speaking, the slightest noises and knocks, wind rustling outside, flickering candles, the chills going down your spine in anticipation of receiving a message from the Otherworld... Add that to the list. Now I just have to decide if I want the setting to be one-on-one or a fake group setting. Decisions, decisions!

Research has to be done aswell as learning how to draw this damned sigil properly. I created a custom sigil for a customer but I can't seem to replicate it quite right. I've never had one be so adamant about the exact proportions of everything. I don't know if you noticed but my thumbnail pictures have changed slightly. By a twist of fate, I happened to run into a very sociable fellow photographer who helped me figure out where the self-timer on my camera is. I'm so happy. That was the exact night I filmed the coloring cats video. Tell you what, one thing I love almost as much as drinking on the job is watching paranormal shows and calling it work. 

Ahem, excuse my random rambles. I just wanted to let you know what I've been up to and that I'll be spamming a lot of reward polls the next few days. Thank you for your patience and I hope you look forward to the June videos! Cheers

//Ally