casual birthday blog (Patreon)

Today I ordered a new dress for myself. After browsing the entire sale section on EMP I settled on this dress and this pair of earrings that match Sai. They look exactly alike, well, maybe a little less purple and bright. 

Today is my birthday, cause some of you have asked. The one day of the year where I have a legitimate excuse to give myself a break. I know you're gonna say I should take as many breaks as I need, but you see, where I come from there was no room for breaks, so this is what stuck with me. As much as I want to just leave it behind, I've been conditioned like this. 

I consider this dress a treat and I hope the XS one fits me. I made a 100% accurate quadrouple venn diagram to illustrate my clothes shopping situation:

It's a damn quiet night. No wind, no cars, it's like all the people are dead. I wish it was this quiet every night so I could get some work done. Can that be my birthday wish? To have a successful career and not be forced to quit due to cyberbullying? And lots of quiet nights and opportunities to work? Is that too many wishes? I feel like this list requires a core mod merger if you know what I mean. If not, it's a Sims 3 modding term. It's meant to merge different mods that conflict with each other, into one file so they stop trying to take each other down. 

I haven't decided what I want to do yet. Though it already started great. I was woken up (from a nap) with kisses and my father texted me and didn't say my mother is in town. I might actually get a quiet birthday this year, and not the sad kind I once had when no one I cared about could make time to see me. Maybe I'll get dressed up and go somewhere my ex might see me, like the nearest shopping mall. The other week I may or may not have ran into her and pretended I didn't see her. Someone who looked exactly like her but a lot fatter and in a baby blue jacket was eating at the asian takeout place and I say that because I can see her getting very fat and eating at that place, it was decent last time I checked, but never have I ever seen her wear anything baby blue in my life. The only thing that in my mind gave her away was that look of utter terror on her face, stopping in her tracks, you know, like you would look at someone you can't get over. I never considered myself a vengeful person but I guess I just never got the chance. I feel a lot like "Hello, hello, remember me? I'm the bitch you lost cause you acted like she wasn't worth your time" 

So that was my little gratifying story. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did, having been there. I'm not used to getting entertainment outside of home as going anywhere is an anxiety inducing endeavor, but this is a highlight. Time to go back to sleep.

//Ally