BTS #004 (Patreon)

I just finished filming the last part of the Midnight Spa trilogy ... I always get so anxious when reviewing the footage but I'm happy to announce it's ... not trash. The way mercury has been fucking shit up I honestly was expecting it to have some kind of stupid error in it but it sounds fine. 

I survived an intense anxious and vulnerable episode that lasted two days. Today is day 3 and I feel a little more stable. Though I'm low on energy still - filming for over two hours really took it out of me. I've been going outside more often again and it's always hit or miss whether a particular outing helps or harms me. But it's worth it if I can get kitty love. Today I found the cutest little kitten and when I approached her to pet her she tried to climb my arm. I picked her up and she started purring ... for about 5 seconds, then she got distracted by birds. Typical kitten attention span. 

I'm listening to one of my go-to ASMR videos to wind down while I have to lie down. You probably don't know this but my posture is pretty bad and my back hurts if I sit up for too long. That probably means that I need ... right, lots of massages. Just look at all the massages I've given since my last video went public. I deserve some in return. Jack's hands will be pretty busy when we move in together. Jokes aside, I'm glad you enjoyed my massage video so much. I hope the ridiculously long mani/pedi/soak package will be equally as pleasing. I successfully managed to trick some people into thinking I got a haircut... Boy will they be surprised when the next one comes out. Yep, this is how I entertain myself.

Ahhhh, second round of my video loop. I don't really have a video schedule because, well, things never really work out as I plan them even if I do bother with a plan. It's about time for our Friday night date and I didn't mean to be filming so late but it happens. I feel kinda bad I haven't been able to function enough to film more. That's all I really had to say. So many new ideas are going through my head and making them happen always takes so much longer than I expected. 

I'm gonna go and enjoy a well deserved drink or 5. Send lots of kitty love my way please. 

//Ally