I'm sad and if you want to know why... read this post. (Patreon)

I wasn't going to go into this but I figured I should in case people notice if I feel a bit 'off' during upcoming reactions.

Tahney, my dingo was 14 years old and had a form of dementia and arthritis. For the past few months, me and my dad have watched her go from being a happy, jumpy and enthusiastic dog to being completely lifeless and completely docile. She would constantly have accidents where things would just fall out of her without her even knowing it was happening. She wouldn't respond to her name and often we'd have to put things infront of her face for her to realize it was there. We believe she was blind and deaf but we're not 100% sure. She would sit down and eat her food and slip over causing the water bowl to spill everywhere as well. She would occasionally just lean against objects in the house to stay stood up and dad even saw her holding her head at the wall. He wasn't even sure if she was still alive or if she had a stroke or something, she was just leaning. It was kinda scary.

Here's a dingo, that in her prime could jump on the roof and my dad had to chase her from roof to roof to stop her, and now couldn't even get on the couch. 

About 2 weeks ago she fell into a mud hole and came inside completely covered head to toe in mud. Like it was insane. Here's a dog that would fight tooth and nail to avoid being washed in a bath and she almost fell asleep as we bathed her this time. We knew we had to take her to the vet but we knew if we did, we'd have to make a decision and we just weren't ready.

On Monday my dad came in and spoke to me almost in tears about how this was cruel for us to keep her around like this and that it was time to take her to the vet to be put down. We made arrangements and spoke to my sister who is in another state now about it and she fell to pieces not being able to say goodbye. 

5pm September 10th, my dad took her to the vet and I said goodbye. I didn't go. I couldn't go. Tahney was an amazing dog. I use to think people always over talked their dogs, like they had so much personality and I would laugh at them because Tahney, she had personality. She ate through the back door, jumped the fence several times, ran around with a dog plushy for hours and I remember she got it tangled up in this green crisscross fence stuff and the lawn mower was going to get it and she dove in to save it. I remember she jumped probably 6 feet into the air to catch a bird. She jumped a picket fence when she tried to escape because she was home alone and lonely and she got her paws stuck. I remember she would come into my room on a stormy night and she would go behind any object she could to avoid the thunder, she would scratch the floor.  I remember when I went to QLD and came back I put my empty suitcase on the floor and she slept in it. This was my dingo, and now she's gone.

So I apologize if I seem a bit distant or upset in the next few days/weeks. This is the first time I've lost somebody that meant a lot to me in a very long time. 

A friend of mine dropped by today and dropped of a care package which was very sweet of her to do. The Vet also sent us flowers which was also very kind. I'd like to thank everyone that has said nice things. 

This post ended up being a little longer than I thought, but I wanted to be clear and explain that this wasn't an easy decision to make and I really miss her.