Todays been hard. (Patreon)

Lets talk about my day shall we.

Dad woke me up after I had a restless sleep at 10AM "we're going to see Captain Marvel in at 1PM"
Cool, needed to have a shower, get dressed... attempt to dry my hair (I have long hair it doesn't dry quickly) and put my face on.

I planned to go to the movies, then come home and react to Supernatural and some pilots from last month. It was gonna be a trip.

We get out of the cinema and...

Well first, Captain Marvel was actually pretty decent. It's been hit with a lot of controversy and dad almost didn't even want to see it after some of the stuff that was said about it, but we both actually kind enjoyed it. Without spoiling (oh gosh I hope this isn't classed as a spoiler) I feel like Brie Larson was okay in the role, but I don't feel like she is Robert Downey Jr. as Tony Stark or Chadwick Bosemen as Black Panther (or pretty much all the MCU but that was just naming a few). I feel like she could have done a bit better to flesh out the character to actually make the character her own but to me it kinda felt more like a template that any actress could fill. But that's my opinion. Also even though the cat is a show stealer... it scared me.

Anyway, my uncle called - he lives in a different state and sometimes drives down here with his 8 year old son and stays here. You may realise, I have a bed that is kinda messy behind me... I don't use it, it's broken and has plaster on it from when my wall broke. I instead use the spare bedroom to sleep in but it's a spare room so when my uncle comes, I cry because I don't get to sleep. 

Turns out, he's staying at my house tonight. Absolutely no warning. Dad can't say no to family and I can't blame him, I am the same. I had to spend the remainder of today cleaning the spare bedroom and the bathroom and toilet (I'm a girl we are messy too!)

I sat there in a state of panic, I have so much to do.

I still need to edit the two episodes of The Originals that were suppose to be out on Monday... I still need to record Supernatural and pilots for last month. I had a panic attack. 

What this post is about is me explaining my day and how I came to this moment right now. With my 8 year old cousin here constantly asking to play my PS4 and my switch, constantly interrupting me and with my uncle in the kitchen which echo's so loud I'm surprised you can't hear them now; I don't know what I can do.

I want to be productive and get things out on time for everyone but things keep getting in the way and I don't like letting anybody down, ever so I thought I'd explain my day and why I can't get things out.

I guess next week I'll try make it up to you guys in some way if I can, but I humbly apologize for everything being late. My stress levels are at like 100 and I just wanted to let you know where I am at right now.

Thank you if you read all of this, and thank you to everyone that has been very patient with me. I really do appreciate you all. 

PS. in case you didn't realise, I think I am sleeping at my desk tonight, gonna wake up tomorrow with an ache in my neck it's gonna be great.