Confrontation. (Patreon)

It took him few days of internal struggle to finally accept Patrick's offer of a more serious talk about what happened. Truth to be told, he had no one else to talk to on the topic of his sexuality, plus Pat was really relaxed about bringing up the subject. He was older and more experienced, to him nothing seemed like a big deal. Always reliable, honest, and assertive, almost a complete opposite of Filip. Maybe this is why teenager didn't feel threatened or provoked to put his guard up. Instead, this awfully calm silence of passing days, made him more desperate to finally talk and clear the air, just as Patrick suggested on a smoke break earlier this week. 

"Don't worry, take it at your own pace. I know it may be really overwhelming, considering how... extreme your ideologies are."  

In all honesty Patrick couldn't stand homophobic slurs Filip tend to bring to the workplace. He seen way more potential in that boy, and knowing him for a year now, he knew that Filip's hatred was only rooted in fear and insecurities. He believed that his defensive and occasionally aggressive behavior pointed at something Filip was hiding, probably even from himself.

"I know it may sound uncomfortable to you, but there's nothing wrong with feeling good about that night. You enjoyed it and so did I, but that doesn't mean you're suddenly gay. If you feel like you're not aroused by it, if you're not aroused by men, then don't think about it too much. Stuff happens, especially when you're so high. I'm not going to judge you, and if someone will you can always fuck them up." 

Complete chill from Patrick's side was comforting. Filip's whole personality was based around being scared of weakness, and the way Pat explained it, secured the rebel teenager's sense of control. His non judgmental approach made Filip less scared of what that one night might have changed.

"I liked it. It was hot as fuck. Probably because of those drugs. Or not..."

Filip leaned in to reach Patrick's lips feeling safer and more at peace with the glimpse of upcoming unknown.