Diaper Update 6/20 (Patreon)

I’m just going to jump straight into this Diaper update!

The tone I’m trying to capture in this update is a little more serious than my other ones. In the past, I’ve been quite whimsical and upbeat about my posts. I’m not trying to sound sad in this post! But I’m getting to a point in my unpotty training where I need to make a serious decision as to whether I want to keep going or not. And I’d genuinely like a response from my patrons as to what I should do next. 

Briefly, for those who have just joined us on my journey, I’ll recap my diaper training timeline. I started wearing mostly diapers (Rather than underwear) in early November. I wore normal underwear to work at the start, but I did gradually demoted myself to pull-ups most of the time at work. When I was in public or at home, I only wore diapers. This caused my first steps down the rabbit hole of un-training. Once quarantine hit in late February/early March, I’ve worn diapers 24/7 around my house ever since. I wore panties once in April to see a friend (I’ve never been more nervous about having an accident in my life), but other than that, it’s been round the clock diapers for this girl.

In my last post I talked about how I had my first daytime accident! 😊 Ever since that moment I’ve been very gradually having more accidents/super close calls during the day. What typically happens is my bladder lets me know I have to pee about 5-10 seconds before I’m going to wet myself without much control. If I were in a situation where I wasn’t wearing diapers, I can really clamp down to hold it, but I only have about a minute or two before I’m just going to start wetting myself regardless of my situation. 

If I’m in the middle of something like playing a video game, then my bladder will pretty much say, “Hey, I’m wetting now.” Then instantly I’ll wet my diaper. If I’m super engrossed (Or I’m drunk) then I’ll normaly have a full accident in my diaper without realizing it. I have unaware accidents about 2-4 times a week right now.

To put it simply, nighttime is wet time. I’m waking up wet without remembering waking up about 3-5 times each week. If I do wake up with the need to pee, I go automatically. I haven’t had a dry night in about 3 weeks now. I actually love being a bedwetter. I know I don’t write about it much, but I love not having to get up from the warm bed :3. The amount of times I’ve been like, “Oh duh, just wet my diaper” and the let go, ugh it makes its so fucking worth it tbh.

That’s where I’m at currently with my diaper training. I think it’s obvious to anyone who reads above that I’m getting diaper dependent. That’s the main message I’m trying to convey in this post. I’m becoming exactly what I sought out to become all those months ago. Diapers are my underwear. 

I think the question I’ve been asking myself lately is: “Do I want them to be my permanent underwear?” I’m at the point now where I can genuinely make that choice. Like many of you, I wore diapers for fun one night, masturbated, then went back to my normal life for a bit. 

But right now, I feel like I’m at an inflection point. If I walk back to ‘adult’ potty habits before I started this journey, I could probably get back to 100% normal potty trained in a couple months. On the same side of the coin though, I could continue to seriously increase my diaper dependency in that same amount of time. I could become 100% incontinent probably by October/November, or I could stop now, and get back to “Regular” panties.

I wanted to see what you guys think. I know that there’s going to be a heavy diaper bias; however, we are all humans here. You know my diaper training frankly better than ANYONE else in my life. I frankly don’t have anyone else to turn and talk to about this. 

I ask for your honest opinion on the matter. Message me, or comment below. Whatever you feel comfortable with. 

If I’m being honest with myself, I do want to stay in diapers in some capacity. I’m an adult, which means I can make my own decisions. I want diapers to be my regular underwear. At the same time though, do I want to pretty much have a medical condition because of that? I’m not entirely sure. I lean toward no but wetting myself freely the past few months has been much less stressful, and a lot more fun, then I thought it’d be when I first started. Wearing diapers and using them isn’t nearly as big of deal as I thought it was. No one is paying attention to the state of your underwear in public. 

At the same time though, do I want to strap my big girl panties back on and be an “adult”?

I’m on the fence, so please, I ask you as patrons of this page, to give your honest heartfelt opinion! We are all AB/DL’s here. We understand wearing diapers better than anyone else in this world. I think this is the best forum to talk about this than anywhere else.

Thank you to those who will respond. It will help me more than you know. I’m able to wear diapers purely off the support I get from this patreon. I wouldn’t be able to do it without you regardless of if you respond or not. I love you all. 

Regardless of what happens, Diapers will be a part of my life. It’s taken me a long time to financially support myself to get here. But now that I’m there, I don’t’ want to go back to 0% diapers. I simply love them too much.

I look forward to your responses 😊!!