Diaper Update 4/20 (Patreon)

Oh, what a month everyone.

I'm so excited to share my progress with you guys, that I'm just gonna start right off the bat with some BIG updates on my unpotty training!

As you can guess because I'm alone in my house with no one, and I'm literally home 24/7, I've been wearing non-stop 24/7 since late March. The first big hit to my potty training was something I was waiting to finally happen. Bed wetting. 

I've read a some online forums and guides on how to unpotty train myself in the past, but I went all in this month. It seemed like bed wetting was the first thing that starts happening when you're successfully becoming diaper dependent. Let's just say, I've made some serious progress in that area ;)

It started happening around the second week of April. I've been trying to become more and more comfortable with bed wetting ever since I started this in November. I was very comfortable with wetting my bed consciously. By that I mean I'd wake up in the middle of the night and have no problem letting loose into my diaper. That's all fine and well, but that's not truly "Bed wetting." That's more, "I'm purposely bed wetting." 

I knew it was coming, and once the quarantine happened, I knew it was inevitable. 

!!!!!!!!!! MY FIRST WET NIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!

It was surreal. I went to bed like I have been the past month (drinking a whole glass of water before going to bed. I can't do more than that because I'll have to pee almost immediately and I never fall asleep ). I'm pretty sure I woke up for like a second, but I was so out of it. It just a picture in my mind of opening my eyes, then immediately falling asleep. When I woke up in the morning, I checked my diaper instantly.

Wet ;)

FUCK YES!!! I did a fist pump in the air I was so happy :)))))) I looked under the covers and just felt around my diaper for a while. It was just like the stories always said. Kind cold (but not that cold, just like body temp) and squishy. I was just so happy, guys. I've been working so so hard on this the past few months, and to finally see some progress, it was a moral booster for sure.

I had one more wet night like that about 3 days ago. I'm ecstatic that's it's becoming more frequent :). An average night for me right now is waking up around 2 or 3 am, feel pressure in my bladder, then immediately let go. I often fall asleep before I'm even done wetting it's that automatic. I'm at the point where I 100% need protection when I fall asleep. I could maybe make it if it I really, really tried. But I'm so used to wetting my diaper, I know I'd just let go automatically without thinking about it.

Guys. Typing that out just made me realize. Am I officially a full fledged bed wetter?! I've always thought that a bed wetter was someone who has zero control of keeping their bed dry. But reading what I've said above, would you consider me a bed wetter? I kinda think so.

Wetting during the day is completely natural to me now.  I'm still waiting on my first complete day time accident, but I'm really getting there with the 24/7 quarantine!!!  I will say this, I also need at least SOME kind of protection during the day now. I still physically have my potty training, but mentally, I'm expecting myself to just let go. If I wore panties (God it's been... literally over 30 days since I've worn panties. Damn that's weird to think about.), I know my brain would just let go the moment I felt pressure. Regardless of if I'm wearing a diaper or not. So... guess who's wearing diapers out whenever I get groceries.

Me :)

It's been a wonderful month. I'm enjoying this way more than I thought I was going to. Diapers are becoming a serious part of my life. I was nervous about blending my sexual fantasies with my real life at first. I think that's the first mental block someone like me has to overcome when becoming 24/7. The idea of wearing at work just hit me really hard.

I've felt happier. I like not having to use the toilet. I enjoy the convenience of a diaper. I think they're cute. I've been more sexually energetic, and I've been writing a lot more because of it. I think what I'm trying to say is. I want to wear diapers for a long time. I knew I wanted to take this jump, but having spent this full month in diapers, I know for a fact this is how I want to live my life. 24/7 diapering is a real part of me now.

Thank you everyone for supporting me. Your words of encouragement mean so much to me. Even if the quarantine ends soon, I'm not going out of diapers after that. I'm a little scared to admit that to myself, but I feel more excitement in my chest than I do fear. 

I have been running a little low on diapers lately. I should be fine to keep myself going, but I'll have to resort to the shitty diapers from CVS. If you want to help me stayed diapered, this is the link to go to:

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/2ER5QTGFVU7OV?ref_=wl_share

No pressure of course :) You're support here on patreon is more than enough!

Love you guys. See you soon with another update :)