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Hello Everyone,

So I just wanted to update all of you on my life. To be frank, I think it's obvious to all of you that I haven't been able to create as much content the past few months. I do not want to go into details,  mostly because they're personal, but I've been dealing with the deepest depression I've ever experienced in my life. My job has been beyond horrible. It's honest to god sucked my entire life out of me.

No one really wants to hear about others falling into depression. It's a sad topic, and some don't always understand. Because of all this though, I haven't felt nearly any motivation to write much for our fetish. When I first started, ideas would flow out of me almost every hour. I wanted to create new stories, and new concepts that hadn't been so grand since the greatest creators to ever grace this earth (Long Rifle, Tainted sins, etc).

I still feel that way, but my depression has stunted me. My mind and metaphorical dick has the ideas, but my sadness has kept me from writing much down. In essence, I have so much I want to create, but my emotions have stopped me.

I've thought long and hard about this patreon. I want to create for the rest of my life. I want you all to be the only ones to experience my fantasies. But at $5 a month, I think that' a bit much for how much I create now. 

So, coming down to brass tax, I've thought of switching up the tiers. Essentially, I'd get rid of all tiers except for one. I'd create one all access tier for $4. Everything I create for $1 dollar less a month. What would you guys think of this? Would you want me to do less? Perhaps keep it the same at $5? I would really like to hear what you all think. Feel free to comment below or personally message me.

I thank all of you again for what you have given me. I don't think I'd be where I am now without it. I am getting better. I quit my job, and I'm in the final stages of negotiating a much better one. I think it would really allow me to have more time for my creations. I love you all, and again, just thank you so much. I hope to hear from all of you.


Thanks,

Maggie

Comments

Babybluesea

Hey Maggie, I'm sorry you have been going through depression. It's been something I've battled my whole life. I hope things start to look up for you, I myself have been feeling the same with my job. This year I made a commitment to find something better than what I'm doing and for it to be better financially and personally and I hope you can find the same. Hang in there it will get better. Also I'll be keeping my sub at $5 dollars because your work is fantastic.

Anonymous

Maggie, I've been there too. I'm sure I am not alone in saying that you have our support and we will do anything we can do to help get you through this. I just got out of a terrible job in November, and have still not been able to find anything new. I can't say its been easy not to fall into depression every time I get rejected for a job, because its very hard to stay positive, but I know that being positive and hoping for the best possible outcome is the only way to survive instances like this. Feel free to message me if you ever need someone to talk to or vent, my digital door is always open.

Anonymous

I'll be keeping my sub at $5 because I think you're worth it. (Honestly, I think you're worth more and I'd give it if I could). I've dealt with depression a lot as well and I hope that you feel better too. Like has been said before, if you ever need to talk, about anything or everything, just send a message and I'll be happy to chat. I'll even share my discord deets if you want

Anonymous

Maggie, sorry to hear that you have been dealing with depression. I'm also sorry to hear that your job didn't work out for you, I've been in that position several times and it's honestly a shitty feeling. Though I am happy to hear you have something else lined up (so a new start to a new year at least) As others have said, we think your content is worth the cost. Considering I've stuck around so long around the 10 dollar tier you know I'm dedicated to this patreon. I hope you feel better all the same.

C.

Hey, sorry to hear about the depression but keeping us updated on your current status! If I can recommend something, take an indefinite hiatus until you’re ready to return and turn your subscription to $1 per piece of content you release until you’re ready to come back and then turn back on the monthly payments when you’re ready. I know DyperDrive did this a bit of a while back and it seemed to work out. This was more of a way to just let patron’s keep following them until they were ready to come back from their hiatus and they didn’t post a bunch of filler content while they were away (didn’t post anything that wasn’t public actually until they came back). End of the day mental health is the most important so giving yourself a proper step back is the most important right now.

Anon A. Mouse

Alright, so I am going to be frank. The first part of what you posted is utter bullshit. If you believe for a minute that the 166 people that you have as Patrons don't want to hear about you and your life, be it good or bad, you've got another thing coming Missy! We all (I'm just gonna go out on a limb and say that I am speaking for all 166 of us) care about you and want you to succeed both in your daily life as well as with your Patreon. If we didn't, we wouldn't be sending you money. You're right, depression can sure as shit be a real downer, but it's nothing we aren't ready to face with you. That aside, you have to do what is best for you. Maybe facing down your demons alone is "how you do battle best." No one should ever fault you for coping mechanisms. However, please know that we are here for you and will support you in whatever way we can. Now, on a lighter note. Congratulations on leaving your soul-crushing job. While it is always scary stepping away from a paycheck, sometimes that leap-of-faith is what it takes to turn your life around. Furthermore, congratulations (pending finalization) on the new job. I hope that this change in employment provides you with some much needed serenity. Regarding your tiers, I'd say that it's ultimately up to you. You have to do what is comfortable for you. If not, every time you look at Patreon, I can guarantee that little voice in the back of your head is going to break you down a little more. "You don't deserve all these Patrons", "You're letting all of your fans down", and so on. First of all, that little voice is a prick and you need to have a conversation with it and tell it to go "fuck off". You deserve everything and more. You deserve to succeed without punishing yourself. However, it's never quite that easy to shake that inner demon and while it still has a hold on you, you will only be feeding it if you are not 100% comfortable with your pricing scheme. And we will support you in whatever you decide. In conclusion Maggie, you are an amazing artist. More importantly though, you are an amazing person. You will find your way through this. If you get lost though, don't be afraid to reach out for help. We got you girl!

Anonymous

I am very sorry to hear about your personal struggles. Depression is no stranger to me either. It might be helpful to take an actual break from creating content for now, if it is at all possible. The focus should be on your own self and on doing what's best for you. Your well-being is the topmost important thing. I personally feel that having a proper break would also be more fair towards the patrons here too. That is, if writing and producing feel way more difficult and forced at the moment than what they used to. Once everything else is back on track, creating content will feel easier and more natural as well, and will result in the top-notch content we all know you for. I hope you decide to do what is best for yourself. Much love &lt;3

Maggiescappies

Thank you all so much for those who have reached out. I never expected to receive this much support from all of you. It means the world to me. I love you all. I'll have something figured out for the tiers, as well as some new content, soon! Thank you. Be well my friends &lt;3

Anonymous

Maggie please know that you are not alone. We are here for you Vent and rant to your hearts content we will listen and support you. I am sure than many of us endure the same hardships. We only want what is best for you. Please hang on! &lt;3