Happy and Healthy, the Blog of Megan Waters (Patreon)

November 29, 2019

It's black friday and I'm shopping online for super size fat lady clothes. I outgrew all my clothes I already bought. I can't believe how fat I'm getting. Ever since I crossed 300 pounds it seems like I gain weight like no one's business.

I'm constantly getting rounder and softer, and my rolls and folds are getting larger and larger I'm turning into a belly fat making machine. I feel like I've gotten wider and my double chin is just enormous now. I look nothing like my profile picture, I've completely transformed myself.  It's sickening and revolting that I've coated myself in 300 pounds of  greasy yellow goop. That's all fat is! Greasy yellow goop that coats your body and I've been fattening myself up on purpose.

i went to my parents for Thanksgiving. What a disaster! Only the immediately family was there, just me, mom, and my sister. I spent the entire day eating something or another and getting teased by my sister and scolded by my mother. My mother kept telling me I was a fool for following this plan. You don't need that slice of pie. Too much butter is bad for you.

At one point I dropped my fork and ripped my pants trying to pick it up. My sister laughed out loud and called me a beluga and my mother gave me some sweat pants to wear for the rest of the day.

I continued to gorge and my sister took the time to read my last blog entry at the dinner table. My mother told me to lift up my shirt and I showed them all my big belly. Mom covered her mouth and then poked my stomach, telling me I had ruined myself. She then forced me to eat a vegetable, a bowl of broccoli. She refused to allow me to eat any more pie unless I ate it.

I couldn't stand the taste.

It was the first time I've had greens in close to a year and I fear my taste buds have completely been warped. I used to eat broccoli for lunch every day but when I ate that bowl I thought I was going to puke. I quickly finished it and dove for a second pie just for myself.

I definitely feel unhealthy now from depriving myself from greens. I'm just so tired all the time. I sweat just standing and sweated during dinner stuffing my face. Towards the evening I started farting up a storm and my little sister just kept laughing at me, yelling out THAR SHE BLOWS! It was all so humiliating, seeing my mom look at me with disgust. "GO ON A FUCKING DIET!!" She yelled at me when I farted for the eighth time.

I also lost another client. My clients aren't comfortable with me training them anymore.

I can't wait for this year to be over so I can get thin again. Just Christmas left to go. Dear lord I'm going to be a whale.

So sick of this.

#tippingpoint #scared #stillprovingapoint?