Confessions in a Cramped Dorm Room... [Gentle Dom] (Patreon)

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Script: Coldtofu

Summary: You barge into my dorm room late at night with an interesting proposition…

Tags: [M4F] [Dorm Neighbors] [Friends to Lovers] [Practice Sex] [Confession] [Soft Dom] [Leading You] [Kissing] [Nipple Play] [Cunnilingus] [Lots of Aftercare] [Gentle]

(art by @wakamatsu372)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:

Every couple of days I get a DM or even an email from someone saying how much they appreciate how outspoken I am about the things I believe in. I'm obviously very appreciative but I always try to steer the focus onto the actual things I'm talking about instead of making it about me, and that kind of gets me to think about this indelible aspect of content creation that I cannot stand: the competition.

An example: Even with what I do here, and with the million disclaimers that I make about how I only do this stuff here on Patreon for fun, there are people who always feel the need to group and rank my performance compared to others. I'm not particularly bothered by that in and of itself because to a certain extent it's inevitable -- it's more just the bewilderment I face when it happens. What's the need for it? For what purpose does it serve? Once you've ranked my performance, what can you possibly derive from it?

And I think I start thinking about these things in relation to people praising me for being so outspoken, if only because the conversation sometimes gets into a kind of territory where the other person says things like "I wish [this other streamer that I watch] was as outspoken as you, En." Obviously I think it's great when anybody speaks out on behalf of issues of injustice that are important, but it's just odd to frame it in such a way where you're praising me for something other people aren't doing, you know? It just ends up feeling like literally anything we do gets passed through this finite evaluation machine that only serves to bastardize the very things I try to draw attention to. I feel like if you take that idea to its logical end, it presupposes that I'm only supporting certain causes to benefit from the attention I get from my audience, which is absolutely a sickening idea to me.

I hope for a day when the things I believe in aren't undermined by people questioning my motives or comparing me to others. I think people should be defined by the material effect they have on other people. And if I can help ease the suffering of another person, then it shouldn't matter for what purpose I do what I do on a personal level. The end goal speaks for itself.

(As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.)
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude

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