scene 38 wip + HIATUS (please read!) (Patreon)

drawing the backgrounds was really fun! it's one of my favorite parts of the whole process, it gives everything depth and detail and life. i had to do a lot of different ones for this scene and i could include more of Noah's journal, too. 

i will post scene 38 as well as the public update tomorrow / day after tomorrow 💜

and after this i will go on hiatus. you probably saw this coming and i did, too, to be honest. 

while i'm away YOU WON'T GET CHARGED FOR AUGUST, i stopped the billing cycle! you don't have to do anything or delete your pledge (except if you want to ofc), but everything will resume as usual in September. which also means i won't be active here in August but i will come back! i will probably still be on IG or on twitter, and sometimes peek into Discord.

i hope we'll see each other in September again  🥺 💙 thank you for your wonderful support until now!!

only read if you want to it's just venting -> //

as for the reason. i decided to completely pause it because it's better for myself. i have the feeling that the majority of you wouldn't mind to still support me even with not much content or no update, but i think that a complete break where i don't even have to think about posting content for once will be good for my mind

my artblock is still around, but i want to draw...? i'm super inspired, because i have read a ton of awesome manga the past week, and i want to do so much stuff!! i want to learn and i want to improve, i want to use some new colors and i want to draw backgrounds and foliage, and so on! i want to take a break from drawing updates and instead focus on writing again and have fun with drawing random things (like my new OCs) and even for Robin and Noah i have a ton of ideas for illustrations and other things

so more than an artblock at this point it is comicblock. i feel like a useless piece of cheese.... after weeks of not being able to draw properly my confidence in drawing comic pages is gone. i do like the result... i think? but i struggled so much with the easiest panels. i can't help feeling embarrassed about it. i can't draw for many hours... at the end of the day i almost had nothing to show. working longer to make up for it is not even an option for me and i feel deflated. and i keep spiraling into tons of thoughts whenever i think about the future of the comic, like "can i even do that, it's still so much to draw"... and yeah, i'm pretty sure i can. but not with thoughts like this 😭

so, this has nothing to do with direct pressure from my readerbase or anything in that direction ;; no one was mean to me except myself sjdfhs

my setbacks sometimes creep up on me after having a bit of a good time, and i have a hard time to accept them and myself whenever it happens. the best thing i can do now is to rest a lot

hmm yep, i think that sums it up! i'll make sure to collect cool stuff for you (if i do something) and show you after the hiatus.  i really love you, and i hope you enjoy the updates i'll post soon 🦌💜