Dear diary: In such a sex headspace. (Patreon)

So I'm finally feeling top notch better, and yesterday I got into the recording booth and went to town on some audios I've been meaning to catch up on. I'm in process of edits, and I keep having to pause from getting so turned on!

Something about being well again has turned me all the way up lately. I see comments on things, or someone reaches out to let me know that they liked something and I can't help but slide my fingers into my panties to do a wetness check. 

I was asked recently, if I were to receive a toy off of my wish list, would I write about it and the answer was "yes absolutely, if that's what you'd like" and the simple question had me researching remote toys and vibrators. So now I'm sitting here trying to work, and as I type the words I can feel the familiar twinge between my legs, forcing me to squeeze my thighs together as I think about retreating to the couch for some play time. 

I can't help myself from rocking my hips back and forth, feeling the urge to slide my fingers over myself. I get distracted by the work I'm recording, or when I'm writing something spicy, and I find myself "accidentally" pinching my nipples, biting my lip, and before I know it, I can't resist.

I know that as soon as I'm done typing this, I have to go relieve some of this built up pressure. The more I think about it the harder it gets to formulate a thought to type. The thought enters my mind now that I can just click record...my microphone sits right in front of me, ready to catch the sounds I make, and that spins me out even more. 

Knowing that I can just hit record, get off, and it will be transmitted to you, to your ears, and that will have a physical effect on you...fuck...it's just so damn good. I tell myself to resist, but I want to ride this energy I know I'm helpless to. I am helpless to the want, to the need. 

Even now, all I can think about is rubbing my clit, sliding a finger into myself as I cum, feeling that moment when I erupt. The pulse rising, me tightening around my fingers, ripples of pleasure coursing through me as I ride wave after wave of mind-crippling ecstasy. The euphoric after effects, when my mind feels numb, almost dull. A bit hypnotic, I lose all thoughts and just feel tingles of happy relief. And what really gets me, is that lately it doesn't take long before I am whipped up again. I cum so much more than I used to, and it is amazing. 

So that's my day. You know what I'm going to go do now. Happy Tuesday. May you get yours also...it's what drives me.

Love, 

Smutty 😘💖