Updates / Letter from Ayasz (Patreon)

I have sat here and written out a huge letter regarding the events of the past 2 weeks of no updates, however, when I reached about 7 thousand words I realised I'm having a conversation with myself on paper and no one wants to read a wall of text that's essentially a diary entry.(I didn't even want to read it)

So here's a quick summary of what's been going on since my last update regarding the change in software suites. 

TLDR: I'm very bad at 3D and have no idea what I'm doing but yolo I'm quiting work and uni and trying to make 3D porn as my primary focus! If I end up on the street I'll take it as a challenge, because weakness is not getting knocked down, weakness is not getting back up. I'm taking a risk for a passion. 

-After spending 2 weeks with Blender, completing transition exercises and tutorials I now realise I'm not at 10% of where I want to be. I'm at 0.3%. Turns out I know nothing and I'm a complete noob. (At this stage I don't even know what I did in all those hours last year)

-I was supposed to be starting my degree next Tuesday in interactive media and animation. However after much thought and discussion with industry professionals, I decided to give my position away to someone else who needs the formal environment in order to succeed. 

After breaking down the timeline and costs of this commitment I quick realised it's beyond my capacity to do it all and I can invest my time and resources better and with similar results. 

-Looking at the tools required to complete a "decent" quality render cycle I assembled two machines, a Master and a network Slave. I hate talking money but the Master PC is $14,000 and the slave is $28,000. That's more than the cost of the course itself. (Yes there is an option of utilising a third party render farm for a fraction of the cost but the master PC still needs to remain on the scene) 

-I've also come to an open realisation that my approach, which some may call selfish, is not going to work for anyone. I entered the animation scene completely clueless and have used Patreon as a form of instant gratification which is a very strong motivator. But it was a selfish approach. In order to have any success on the internet you need to form a community, which is something I originally didn't have any intentions of making or driving. 

But here is where I was wrong.    

I thought that making 3D porn would be an on-the-side, hobby level activity with a tip jar for anyone whom may have wanted to throw a coin my way. But now I realise that this might be something that I enjoy much more deeply than I originally anticipated. 

-The animation world and 3D in general is a very competitive environment where only the best of the best can survive. Having said that I feel that if I want to continue in this direction(erotic or professional) I need to make rigid changes and hard sacrifices. I need to schedule myself like I'm at work, put in the hours or get fired. Complete tasks on time or get fired. 

-Over the first week of February I will be making some of these changes. Some of the steps I'm taking include a timetable with work hours. Quiting my day-job and going part-time in order to accommodate the new schedule and taking some steps towards forming more of a community rather than begging for praise so I can motivate myself to keep going. 

This is a quick summary of the past 2 weeks and what's going to happen over the next 2 weeks. If I can't make it work before I run out of money and resources then we'll have happy days and if I can't then I will pursue a different direction and start again. I'm taking a risk for a passion.

Thank you for sticking around and I'm always grateful for your support. I hope you have an amazing day and I'm going back to trying to figure out how to properly texture this silly Goblin model...

Ayasz