NT veRse - Curses 4 - Of Two Minds (Patreon)

Leam clutched his chest over his heart. It was a like a pounding that wouldn't stop. It was not unfamiliar to him, as the feeling rose whenever he was around Dinae. He used to be able to force it down. He forced himself to force it down and hide his feelings due to anxiety but the moment Hannah placed the curse on him the feeling was unable to be ignored or refused.
“I didn't know it would be like this...”

“What's it like?” Hannah asked.
“Keep in mind, this is partially for my sake, as well. If I can understand you as a secondary subject then I'll be able to better troubleshoot Paul's situation. So don't leave anything out.”

“Got it.” He did promise.
“I feel like I want to go to Dinae right now.”

“That makes sense.” Hannah stared at him inquisitively.
“Do you want to-” She blushed, hesitating to say it.
“To-”

Leam stopped her. “No! I think... I don't want to do things to her.” He rethought that.
“I mean, I do.” He admitted awkwardly.
“But that's not the part that feels irresistible to me. I want to go to Dinae and let my feelings out. I'm still nervous and scared but this is stronger than those now. I can't stop it.”

Hannah noted his experience down internally. `He isn't compelled to have sex with her. He wants to, but he feels like it has more to do with revealing and fulfilling his feelings. That was my intent, and the intent written under the curse. So why does only Paul have such an unrestrained lust? Is it really just pent up frustration?` She looked at Leam.
“Sorry, I'm just thinking. You can go do your thing now.”

“Thanks!” Leam ran off in a hurry.

Hannah returned to her home where Paul immediately jumped her. “P-Paul! I can't get any work done like this...” He hugged her and buried his face into her neck, inhaling deeply.

“Have you thought about kids?” He asked suddenly.

“No?”

“Oh...” He looked disappointed.

“But go ahead and tell me anything you're thinking.” She asked as he pulled her by her wrist into the room.

“I want to have many. With you.” He stated. Somehow his eyes seemed more vibrant the more she tried to fee him. It was jarring. With the small release she offered initially he gained so much charisma just from that.

Her face became bright. She covered her mouth. `This guy is dangerous. He mentioned kids and my body starts aching right away. I'm already imagining myself having a family even though I decided I'd rather focus on my studies at this point.` She gulped.
“M-maybe down the line?”

He took her hand and guided her onto the bed. He stared into her eyes. “Will you promise to have children with me?” They were so bright and pleading that she could not resist.

“I...” She sighed.
“I promise.”

He smiled happily. “Thank you!” He lowered her onto her back. She knew what was set in motion already. It was not exactly unwelcome, but it was as she said. Hannah could barely get any work done with how horny Paul was. He looked at her hesitantly.
“I- I know you said down the line but there's a long time between when we start trying and when the child is born... What if we get started now?”

“Paul, I said-” Her words stopped. As she was a mage she could roughly sense the flow of Aura as it moved within her body. As she started speaking and stopped, she felt a chain around refusal. Like it was restricted.
“I-” There was no way she could word what she wanted to say that did not feel like it was not allowed, and that rule felt enforced by Aura moving around inside of her naturally, as if her own self had been altered, not an outside force affecting her. As she hesitated for longer she felt the only possible response being pulled out of her, and she did not feel like she could hate it. In her mind she traced the events that would occur if she had Paul's child.

`I'll be tied to him. Not that that is bad. His problems and my problems become one, kind of. But... Then I can't finish my studies as easily. I just wouldn't be able to without more help than I can get right now. This- this isn't part of the promise!`

She was scared at first but slowly her mind relaxed.
“Down the line.”

He pouted. “Hannah... I'll support you. I don't really understand it, but I feel strong... I feel like I'll be able to do anything once my problems are taken care of.”

She bit her lip. `I somehow believe him. Even though I don't have to, I would be giving up my future so soon and letting him look after me... I know a bit of magic but I'm not anything special if my education stops here. It's a bad idea, but-` In her mind, the image of manly little emerald-eyed children with a mix of her and Paul's hair colors was overwhelming. Her body flooded with hormones and lust.
`I-It's a bad idea... I don't have to.` He was looking at her with sad eyes.
`I...` She gave in.
“Okay, Paul.”

“Oh thank God!” He breathed, panting and sweating a little just from restraint before he finally lifted her legs and entered her by driving down inside of her. Hannah's eyes rolled back.

`I-I'm actually being bred right now... I don't dislike it. I feel my body wishing to be one with him. My insides twist and beg to carry his product. It's like some force is driving me to want to be his, and to create something that is both of ours.`

They continued like that for hours. Hannah was not able to get any work done.

-

Hannah felt an insistent hand on her shoulder as she was returning from patrol. She was only with one person, so it could only be...
“Dalton?” She turned and felt herself being pressed against the nearest building. It was aggressive, but not harmful. He was bold, but not forceful. Her eyes widened as he regarded her cornered self.

“I don't wanna wait. I'm not like that guy, so I'm not gonna hang around you and pretend I don't like you.”

“Oh.” She nodded. She tried to think for a moment, and could not come up with any reason against it. She tilted her hat that had been fitted around her ears up to allow better room around her face.
“I guess you win.” She did not particularly mind. She was waiting for Leam, but another man announced himself first. Leam was preferable, but Dalton was her type physically, and he was there. She raised her arms and draped them over Dalton's shoulders. He bent down to close the distance created by their height difference and kissed her. She slid her tongue in and his pushed in around it. He closed his eyes, content to stay like that. Dinae could not help but think.

`If Leam saw this and learned I was doing this with Dalton already I think he'd be upset but he'd give up right away.` She shrugged her shoulders and pressed herself into him, her perky breasts squishing against his broad chest.

`There's no helping it.`

Leam rounded the corner and saw the sight. Dinae's eyes flitted to the side. She did not stop. They were neither ridiculing, nor shamed, nor pleased. They seemed to be questioning him and appraising his reaction. She thought as Dalton started to place his hands on her with abandon. One hand on her hip, another on her side near her breast.

`I think he might cry. I don't really want that. It would be sad. I guess he'll probably run away now since he realizes I've been stolen from under his nose.` She watched casually, as if she were an observer and not a participant, and it was a scene between Dalton and Leam, not the three of them. For Dinae's forward personality, she had no patience for mind games or personal politics. She wanted people to speak their mind and do whatever was on their mind, since it was how she behaved. She did not understand that some had barriers that could stop them because she barely had any.

`Huh?` She saw Leam clenching his fist and walking forward.

`This isn't like him. It seems like he's acting without thinking. It's like he's being driven.` She wondered what he was going to do.

“Hey!” Leam shouted, shoving Dalton in the shoulder. The man barely moved, but he leaned back from Dinae and glared at Leam for interrupting.

Dinae know it was not going to turn out well, because Dalton was someone that was fit to be a soldier, but had the temperament of a recruit, and Leam was simply acting tough. He turned on a dime and punched Leam in the cheek, causing him to fall flat on his ass.

“Hey yourself! Don't touch me. Can't you read the situation? Get out of here, or sit and watch. I don't care either way.” He slid the hand that was on Dinae's hip around to her rear, digging his palm in under the cheek and lifting her a  little. He pressed her further against the wall, his bulge making contact between her legs. He was frustrated and on edge, but to make a point Dalton went back to kissing her.

Dinae stared down at Leam. He was shaking. `I feel bad for him. He worked up the courage to do that, but Dalton is too strong. Now that he knows he can't do anything he's probably going to run away. I'll have to think about what to do when he tries to talk to me alone later.` She sighed, closing her eyes. She earnestly returned the kiss, expecting Leam to leave, anyway.

“Hey...” Leam uttered. She opened her eyes in surprise. Leam glared at Dalton.

“I'm not done!”

“Yeah. You're done. I'm basically two thin bits of fabric away from fucking her right now, and she's reciprocating. You need to just give up. You were too slow.”

Leam ignored Dalton. “Dinae, I'm sorry I was so slow. It's my fault so I'll take responsibility. Right now I want you to move away from this guy and come over to me because I'm going to tell you everything I've wanted to tell you and do everything I've wanted to do to you so far.”

“Hmm...” She took a moment to think as Dalton was still all over her.

“No isn't an answer I want to hear, so just get over here. You can fuck that guy at any point but since we've known each other a long time this will be the only chance to finally talk like I've been wanting.” Leam explained.

Her ears perked. “Oh. That's a good point.”

Dalton stuttered. “W-what? But-”

She pushed him away. He stepped back and let her go. “If nothing comes of this I'll come back, Dalton, though if it seems like it's going to work out I'll probably just have to have us go back to being partners.” Dinae said frankly.

Dalton grabbed his head. “The fuck? What are you saying!? Do you think I can just go back to-”

Leam grabbed her hand and began leading her away. Dinae smiled widely. “This isn't like you.”

“I know.” He admitted.

“You were just going to fuck him and be his if I didn't do anything?” He asked, trying not to make it sound like he was blaming her.

“Probably.” She responded as frankly as he expected. It made him smile.

“That. That is the reason I like you. You do everything you want to do and you mean everything you say. You're the opposite of me and...” He panted a little from the physical exertion of confronting Dalton and dragging her away up the hill towards his home.

“And I need you to fill in all the blanks of my life that I can't do, and I want to fill in all the blanks for you.” He explained.

“What are those?” She asked curiously, her tail wagging behind her.

“I know you have no desire to look after the things you don't want to look after. The home, relationships and other social matters that bother you. You're so outgoing!” He laughs.
“When you want to be, but you can't humor anyone that you don't care about. That's how I know you like me, because there would be no reason for you to ever talk to me if you didn't. I want to handle the things you can't handle, and vice-versa.”

“What are you gonna handle?” She teased.

“I can handle everything.”

“What?” She seemed surprised.

“The only thing I couldn't handle until now was you.” He claimed forwardly.

Her lip quivered before she broke into a cackle. “That's so good! So, we're invincible?”

“Yep.” He smirked.

“You didn't even seem to care that I was about to do things with Dalton.”

“Before, I would've gotten so anxious that I couldn't even speak. I'd probably have just collapsed or run when I saw it. But none of that was able to stop my urge to express myself to you and have you this time. It didn't even present a barrier to me.”

“That's... Hot.” Dinae kissed him with the lips she had just kissed Dalton with. They were already in front of Leam's home, but they were not going in.

“You have the ability to handle it now? You can handle anything?”

“I think so? Nothing feels like it'll stop my feelings for you at this point, nor my ability to express them.”

“So could watch while I fuck Dalton?”

“H-huh?”

“Well... It's just a feeling I got but you don't actually give off sexual energy. Just the emotional kind.”

“Is... That right?”

“Yeah. So, is it accurate to say that you're unfazed when I do stuff to Dalton and he does stuff to me?”

Leam scratches his ginger head. “I don't like it, but I don't care... I still love you and want you. The idea of you loving and wanting someone else is-” He looked down as she grabbed his hand.

“Not loving and wanting, because I don't really. I want Dalton after what he did, but I do Love you. I think the strong you is very cute. What if you took me back to fuck Dalton and watched, and then took me away after?”

Leam's face flushed. “I don't want to. But I can handle it.” He groaned.
“Even this weird, open side of you is so... You. I kind of get it. You're saying that you have physical desire for Dalton due to what he started with you, but you love me and want to be with me. A normal person would ignore the physical feelings but you're saying you trust me to let you do what you want?”

“You actually know me so well. That's exactly what it is. This is why I think I wanna return your feelings, because you're probably the only person in the world that gets that I just want to do what I want to do.”

Liam nodded. “In a sense, it's a comfort because that means I'm the only person that can really be with you, huh?”

She winked. “See? Now you get it.”

Leam felt a little bad  Initially he felt bad that she wanted to have sex with Dalton still. Now he felt bad that Dalton would get a warped feeling of her from what she wanted to do.

`He would never be able to accommodate this side of her. Since he sees her on patrol, he thinks she's a normal Beastfolk girl. But I've lived around her my whole life.` He turned around and pulled her back.
“Okay, let's go.”

“Y-you mean it?” Dinae covered her mouth and gasped.
“I'd be fine if you said no.”

Leam exhaled through his nose. “But you want to. You should get to do whatever you want and I'll get you, unconditionally. That'll be how we work.”

Dinae hugged him from behind. “What happened to you? You're like a Hero, now?”

-

Dalton was sulking under a tree outside of town. They found him together. “What do you want? I thought you made your choice?” He said to Dinae. He waved at Leam.
“And to you? Congrats, I guess. What do you want?”

Leam urged her forward. “I want you to fuck my girlfriend.”

“W-what?” Dalton blinked. Dinae giggled to herself, stepping forward.
“This doesn't make any sense? What if she develops feelings for me? Or... has she?” He stared at her. She looked the same as always.

Leam sat down a few yards away as Dinae mounted his lap. “Wouldn't that be something. What if Dinae caught feelings for you while I watched you having sex with her? Wouldn't that be something...” Leam smiled.

`I know there's a chance of that happening. It's non-zero. But I want Dinae to have everything she wants. I'll figure out how to bear any consequences that arise from that. Now that I think about it, it's an exciting gamble.` Leam lifted his chin confidently.
“Ah... Dalton.”

“Y-yeah?” He grunted, pulling his pants down. Dinae was grinding over him.

“Do your best to make her love you I want to see if you can do it.”