DRAWING WEEK 39 - HIS DARK MATERIALS (Patreon)

Hello !

Talking about this character is gonna be difficult for me without talking about personal stuff. I think I managed "well" to do it in intro and review of my videos about the show, without saying too much, because I was focused on what Mrs Coulter did during the episode but here... This character frightened me so much when I read the first book, I hated her because of how much she hurt Lyra but also the other kids. In book 2, I was terrified by all of what she was doing to get her daughter back and also the presentation of her ideas in life, politic, religion, everything.

But then, the chapter on the book 3 happened. And it changed me. Yes, personally, forever. I remember that I read the chapter, was shocked, disturbed, and closed immediately the book. I read the rest hours later. And if you knew me as a teenager when new books of Harry Potter or His Dark Materials were into my hands, you would know it was not normal at all. 

To be simple, I had and still have now a complicated relationship with my mother. And that chapter, when I was a teenager, hurt me, broke me, showed me that an awful character which was doing bad things, that I hated and didn't understand, couldn't agree with, that character was doing that because she thought it was what a mother should do. It was wrong, really bad, but her reasons, in that chapter, were so well describer that I felt it, the pain of a mother who was doing these bad things because she thought it was the right ones. For what I wrote earlier, you can understand why this chapter broke me and why this character, in the books but also now in the show, is such an "intense" subject for me.