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Dennis

I watched this before watching sound euphonium, so I was so hard to understand. Now that I see it again it makes so much more sense when I understand Mizore and Nozomi better. The story in this movie is told in between the lines through context and subtext. Given that Mizore hardly speaks at all, it is difficult to communicate her thoughts and feelings through out the movie, so they have to do it differently. They could have given Mizore an internal dialog to explain things and how she's feels, but instead they trust them viewer to figure it out themselves through the context of what happens around her and by indirectly address of her inner world. I think, from a westerners point of view anyway, that this narrative structure is really bold, it puts a lot of trust in the viewer's emotional intelligence and ability to put themselves in other people's place. It actually makes it a whole lot better and emotionally relatable if you are shy and socially anxious like Mizore. Nobody gets you because you cannot express yourself, you cannot find the words. You lock up, shut down, turn off and your brain ceases to function. Then someone comes up to you and befriends you and it is like you used to live in a world of black and white and now they have filled your world with a million colors. However, after a while you realize that they have other friends too and you are only one small piece of their life, even though they are everything to you. The only piece in your life. You realize it is unhealthy, Mizore does from the start if you pay attention to subtexts, and you realize that you should make other friends, that you will get hurt if things go continue. But you can't, you don't know how. They befriended you. If you knew how to make friends you would already have done it and she wouldn't be your only friend. Knowing that terrible and unbearable pain is coming, you start to distance yourself frome them, thinking that it will hurt less if you do. But all you do is make them pain worse... God I feel so much for Mizore in this one, because I have gone through that myself. However, the pain becomes a driving force, it forces you to develop and grow. You have no choice, it is a matter of survival and of retaining sanity. You start trying to reach of and make friends and things slowly gets better. This is the path many introverts have been faced with, it is an ugly and painful part of it, but it is often a necessity for growth to go through pain and makes mistakes.

Dennis

Then there is the other side, Nozomi. Nozomi loves Mizore as well, but she wants it to be on her conditions, to have Mizore's love when she wants it. She wants to do all her other things too and values her freedom. Mizore is important to her, but she isn't the only thing she values. She feels her freedom become restricted when Mizore depends on her as much as she does, so she feels there need to distance herself and shrug off Mizore. But after a while she needs Mizore's unconditional love again and comes back after having rejected her. Although she hates having her freedom restricted by Mizore's dependence on her, she also depends herself upon Mizore's unconditional love and inability to distance herself from Nozomi, be it means that she can leave and come back and Mizore is always there waiting for her. She ends up unintentionally abusing Mizore's dependence on her to both have the commitment and at the same time freedom, at the expense of Mizore's hurt feelings and suffering. She makes Mizore suffer (unconsciously and unintentionally) so she has the freedom to have the closeness of their relationship at her time and call. She wants Mizore to wait while she is out doing her other things, so she has her to return to whenever she wants. If Mizore weren't fully committed to her, Nozomi couldn't have their emotional intimacy whenever she needs it, she'd have to wait and risk being rejected, incidentally just like Mizore has to. In the end, she has to let Mizore go and stop yoyo-ing in their relationship, to not be cold or warm whenever she wants and needs it. To set a reasonable boundary and make it clear to Mizore that she depends too much on her.