Daring Kai - Part 32 (Patreon)

Your true passion is the thing that you think of first when you wake up in the morning, the last thing you think of every night and the thing that occupies your mind at every opportunity in between. It’s a famous quote… probably. It was actually from an inspirational quote meme on Facebook, but it had a picture of a Minion on it, so you know it’s poignant! Either way, Kai’s mind had been on just one thing when he went to bed and again when he awoke – Luca!

Grabbing his morning wood as he stretched sleepily, Kai gave it a gentle tug. Okay, so maybe there were two things on his mind before and after he slept – Luca… and his dick. Ever since the summer ended, Kai had regained the ‘right’ to masturbate, and ever since he had started on the road to recovery with Caleb, he had begun to actually exercise that right.

Keeping his eyes closed, Kai stroked his cock dozily. His mental wank bank was positively overflowing with inspiration thanks to the dares he had endured over the past couple of months. Public nudity, public humiliation, embarrassing erections, streaking, exposure, blow jobs… cuddles. As he nuzzled his head against his pillow, his mind conjured images of another fun activity he had begun to explore… kissing!

Moaning contentedly as he masturbated with gathering pace, he tilted his head to the side and reached under the end of his pillow with his free hand to tilt it towards his face. His lips met the pillow… or as it was in his mind, the other set of lips. In his mind, he was back in the library, passionately making out with Luca, enjoying their shared first foray into the exciting world of kissing. In reality, he was a horny nearly-sixteen year old with his hand down his pants and a wet patch on his pillow as he made out with it.

“Ah fuck, yeah,” Kai gasped happily as his orgasm edged closer. Throwing back the covers, he pulled his cock and balls out and fapped frantically as he gasped and panted his way across the point of no return and began to squirt long streaks of white good across his chest and stomach. “Ffffuck,” he gasped quietly as he dropped his hands to his sides and began to catch his breath.

“That looked fun!” Miles stated with barely-concealed amusement.

Kai’s eyes shot open as he jumped from the unexpected intrusion, letting out a surprised yelp as he glared over at the other boy sitting on the spare bed. “Fuck, Miles!” he exclaimed in shock.

“I’d rather you didn’t!” Miles smirked, “Besides, you look like you might need a few minutes to recover!”

“What are you doing here?” Kai demanded. Determined not to let his friend embarrass him anymore, he didn’t attempt to hide. Instead he pulled his boxers off and used them to wipe himself clean before getting up to grab a pair of shorts to slip on.

“Waiting for you to wake up so we can be bored together!” Miles said with a grin.

“You’re planning to be bored?” Kai asked, rolling his eyes as he casually flopped down onto his bed.

“No, I’m planning to do homework… which is boring!” Miles explained, holding up his schoolbag, “Y’know… the homework we woulda done last night if you hadn’t gone all ‘Hulk Smash’ on Leo! What did he do, anyway?”

“It wasn’t ‘Hulk Smash’ it was more like… ‘Hulk express justifiable anger over bad thing’ and it’s none of your business!” Kai insisted.

“Hey, if you’re fucking the group up anymore, it kind of IS my business. There ain’t that many of us left to lose!” Miles said flippantly.

“Heyyyy,” Kai whined, “The Caleb thing wasn’t on me, and we’re talking later anyway. And Leo…” He paused to let out a frustrated growl, then shook his head said, “Leo’s just a cunt, but it’s nothing too big.” He suddenly remembered what he had been thinking about when he woke up and declared, “OH!” as he jumped to grab his phone.

“Updating your fan club?” Miles smirked as he got up off the spare bed and approached Kai’s, intending to sit with him to do their homework.

“No, just… looking for…” Kai trailed off, not wanting to admit he was hoping for a message from Luca, but not wanting to lie to Miles either. As Miles climbed onto the foot of the bed, Kai frowned a little and asked, “Can I… tell you something?”

“Mmm-huh,” Miles hummed distractedly as he rifled through his bag.

Kai felt a little bad for what he was about to say, mostly because it felt like the sort of thing he should be telling his best friend first, but circumstance had gotten in the way of that possibility. He also found himself thinking back to Miles’s experiment with him, the one in which he had concluded he was, in fact, completely straight. It made what he was about to confess feel a lot more appropriate.

“I… kissed someone!” Kai said, feeling a tightness in his stomach. He knew literally any further information would reveal a lot more about him, and there was really no way out of that now.

Miles stopped motionless for a moment, raised his gaze to Kai briefly, then looked back to his bag as he tossed it off the bed and said, “Fuck homework! Tell me more! Was it good?”

Kai grinned at the gesture, then smiled broadly as he nodded and said, “Oh my god. SO good! Like… amazingly good!”

“Ohhhh!” Miles said knowingly as he glanced at Kai’s pillow. “That would explain the wet patch. I was kinda worried you just had a pillow fetish!”

“Yeah, thanks for that,” Kai muttered, blushing at the reminder of his accidental show. “Aren’t you even gonna ask me who it was?” Kai asked curiously.

“I can probably guess!” Miles sniggered.

“You can?” Kai asked, cocking his head questioningly.

“Oh, maybe I can’t,” Miles said coyly. “Who… was it?” he asked, hoping he had side-stepped that particular landmine.

“Luca!” Kai stated, actually feeling his face ache from how heavily he smiled at the mention of the name.

“Luca… Ward? From your class?” Miles asked, staring in shock.

“Mmm-huh,” Kai hummed with a nod.

“Nice!” Miles said, nodding gently.

Kai’s brow furrowed a little as he said frustratedly, “I tell you I kissed a guy… and basically come out to you and all I get is… ‘nice’?”

“Sorry, I’ll try harder,” Miles said a little sarcastically, “Give me the lead-in line again. Who did you kiss?”

Kai huffed a little and played along, already knowing it was a mistake as he repeated, “I kissed Luca!”

“OH MY GOD!” Miles yelled out. “You kissed a guy!? You, a male human, kissed Luca, who is also a male human and renowned homosexual, therefore suggesting that you, too, may in fact be a homosexual! This is the biggest thing to ever happen to literally anybody in all of human history and I am shocked. SHOCKED, I tell you. I didn’t see this coming at all and had literally no way to ever suspect that you, one of my closest friends and frequent sucker of penises was, in fact, a gay!”

Kai had folded his arms and sat back, pouting moodily. As Miles finally stopped, he asked unhappily, “Are you done?”

“I think so!” Miles smirked.

“Well you can go now,” Kai said bitterly.

“Ah, Kai, sorry. I’m being a dick,” Miles said apologetically. “I mean, you gotta admit, it’s hardly a revelation, but still. You just came out to me and… that IS big so… I dunno, do I say congratulations? Genuinely asking now, not being sarcastic!”

“I dunno,” Kai shrugged.

“Do I hug you?” Miles asked, leaning forward slightly.

“If you don’t, you’re homophobic!” Kai said with a grin.

Miles laughed as he lunged forward and grabbed Kai, hugging him as he landed on top of him. “Yay, I always wanted a gay friend. It’s basically permission to tell LOADS more gay jokes!”

“You’re such a dick,” Kai giggled, holding onto the other boy.

“Now I just need a fat friend, a disabled friend and a female friend and my material’s basically bulletproof!” Miles joked. As he got an eye roll back from Kai, he sat up and said, “So, you and Luca, huh? Are you… planning on kissing him again?”

“Fuck. I hope so!” Kai replied, grinning once again.

*****

Kai’s morning had been rather wonderful. Being out to a second person, especially someone he was so close to, just felt amazing. He and Miles had got their homework done, but it had taken a lot longer than it should as Miles kept coming up with random questions.

“Are you coming out to anyone else?”

“How many gays does it take to change a lightbulb?”

“Are you gonna tell Caleb and Leo?”

“Do all gays like butt stuff?”

“Are you into the dares and stuff cos you’re gay?”

“Are you gay cos of all the dares and stuff?”

“Does Luca have a sister who’s into gingers?”

Kai felt like he should have been annoyed at the constant questioning, especially as most of them he really couldn’t answer, but it just felt wonderful to have such a close friend in on his biggest secret and have them be okay with it.

The only downside to the morning was the lack of messages from Luca. They had spent all of the previous evening texting constantly, and sending a quick, [Morning!] Kai had expected it to continue, but so far he had heard nothing.

“So is Luca your boyfriend now?” Miles churned out another sudden non-sequitur.

“Oh my god, I don’t know, you gotta stop. You’re getting SO far ahead of me,” Kai said with a headshake.

“Umm, actually this one was kind of… for a reason,” Miles said coyly. He was currently lying sideways on Kai’s bed with his feet on the wall and his head hanging upside down over the edge next to Kai, who was sitting on the floor.

“Oh really?” Kai asked incredulously.

“Mmm-huh,” Miles replied, tilting his head to look straight upwards rather than at Kai as his cheeks flushed, though they were already a little red from his position. “I was just wondering if you’re still allowed to do things with other people,” he queried before adding a cautious, “And whether the deal we had over the summer might… still stand?”

Kai thought for a moment, putting the two parts together as he smirked and said, “If you want me to suck your dick, then just ask me to suck your dick!”

“Ugh, you’re SO high maintenance,” Miles huffed jokingly as he rolled onto his back, span round and sat up on the side of the bed. “Fine, will you suck my dick?” he asked, with a tone that made it sound like it was a massive imposition to him.

“Well, as you asked so nicely,” Kai said eagerly turning to kneel in front of Miles. “You definitely have the best dick out of the four of us!” he stated casually as Miles started pulling his semi-hard cock out of his sweatpants.

“By ‘best’ you just mean biggest, yes?” Miles smirked as he waved his dick a little, feeling it swell more at the prospect of another blowjob.

“I guess so,” Kai shrugged, not really giving it too much thought before leaning in to take the dick into his mouth.

“Ah yeah, and you definitely give the best blowjobs!” Miles chuckled.

Kai pulled the cock out of his mouth briefly to look up and ask, “And who exactly are you comparing me to?”

“Fair point,” Miles shrugged, as Kai was the only person who had sucked his dick. As the other boy started sucking once again, Miles smirked and added, “But by that logic, you’re also the worst, so… do better!”

Kai pulled back again and shook his head as he asked, “You wanna suck your own dick?”

“Pfft, if I could do that, I wouldn’t need YOU!” Miles smirked.

“True,” Kai giggled before getting back to the blowjob.

Miles leaned back on both hands, letting his eyes close as he enjoyed the sensation, imagining it was a girl – literally any girl – sucking on him. “Fuck, if you do this just from being asked, I really can’t wait to get back to giving you proper dares!” He felt the slight rumble of Kai laughing with the penis still in his mouth. “I take it you still wanna keep doing them!” Miles posited.

“Mmm-huh,” Kai hummed back through his mouthful.

“We should totally gang up to make Leo and Caleb do more embarrassing shit,” Miles suggested with a wicked chuckle.

Kai pulled off the dick once again and replaced his mouth with his hand, keeping the stimulation going as he said, “You’re only saying that so YOU don’t get more embarrassing shit!”

“Damn, saw right through me!” Miles laughed, playing it off but secretly annoyed Kai hadn’t fallen for it.

“But making Leo suffer sounds like a good idea,” Kai growled, scowling at the thought of his brother and the things he had confessed to the previous evening. “And don’t ask!” he added moodily before replacing the hand with his mouth once again.

“Ahh fuuuuuck,” Miles groaned contentedly as Kai’s annoyance translated into a more vigorous suck, pushing him rapidly towards release. “Kai, I’m gonna cum soon,” he warned, then closed his eyes and requested, “Can you swallow it?”

Kai hummed, though it wasn’t clear what the noise actually meant until Miles started shooting into his mouth.

“Ah yeah, swallow it ya little bitch. Eat my spunk!” Miles groaned, lost in the moment.

Kai pulled away and looked at Miles with raised eyebrows. Miles stared back at him, blushing.

“Excuse me!?” Kai scoffed disapprovingly.

“Sorry, that wasn’t aimed at you, it was aimed at… whatever girl I imagined was doing it!” Miles explained, though it was not really any less embarrassing then having said it to Kai directly.

“Wow, can’t imagine why the girls aren’t lining up to date you!” Kai said with a bemused smirk as he wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and checked his phone for any messages from Luca. Still nothing. He let out a slight whimper as Miles put his dick away.

“It’s Saturday morning. If he’s normal, he’s sleeping in!” Miles reassured him before he looked at the time and said, “Oh, it’s Saturday afternoon… yeah, he’s dumped you!”

“Don’t say that!” Kai whined sadly.

“Don’t say what?” Caleb asked as he casually strolled in, throwing down his bag of football gear.

“Nothing, never mind, hi!” Miles said cheerfully.

“Hi,” Caleb shrugged. He looked from Miles to Kai and back again and added, “Hey, could you… give us the room please?”

“Sure, I’ll go annoy Leo!” Miles smirked as he stood up.

“Oh, yeah, how’s he feeling?” Caleb asked curiously.

Kai and Miles frowned at each other, then at Caleb as Kai asked, “No idea, he’s been at football practice… with you!”

“No he hasn’t!” Caleb said, shaking his head. “Look!” he said as he stepped forward, showing his phone to the other two.

[Not well. Skipping practice!] the message from Leo said.

“Well, he’s not in his room!” Miles stated, having gone in there earlier to fetch something, “We haven’t seen him! Should we be worried?”

Kai felt conflicted between worrying about his twin and the lingering fury he felt about the bullying. He stood and shoved Miles towards the door as he said, “You worry about Leo, we’re gonna talk!” As he closed the door on Miles, he turned to face Caleb.

“No, really, should we be worried?” Caleb asked.

“Nah,” Kai said, shaking his head, “He’s probably just off sulking somewhere! Besides, I’m not putting THIS off any longer!” He sat down on his bed, sitting cross-legged at one end as he stared at Caleb expectantly.

Caleb nodded gently as he approached the bed and sat down on the other end. “I told the guys you’d be back next week. They seemed pretty happy about it!” he stated with a sweet smile.

“Good,” Kai said before waiting for Caleb to get settled. He took a deep breath and exhaled slowly before he started, “Look, I’ve been… thinking a lot about you and… about what happened at the funeral and even the stuff before that.”

Caleb shook his head and started, “Kai, no, I need to apologise…”

“No, please!” Kai interrupted. “If… if I’m right about the stuff I’m thinking, then… I really want you to hear this stuff before you say anything else about it!” he pleaded softly.

“Okay,” Caleb said with a slight bob of his head.

Kai sighed softly again and smiled a little as he started, “Cay, I’ve known you all my life, and in most of that time we’ve always been close, but… you were always hard to read. Definitely not an open book!” As he got a firmer nod from Caleb, he continued, “If I had to guess, I’d say it was probably because of Kieran and your parents. I mean… you’ve got a cunt of a big brother who takes the piss as soon as you show any feelings and your parents who are always on his side. I know how tough that is. But lately, this summer, it was like… well, I guess like the book started to open and I started to… kinda get a look inside, but then… when you were probably at your lowest, when I shoulda been there for you… ONLY for you… I wasn’t! You finally let someone in and I failed you and I totally understand why you were mad at me and didn’t wanna talk to me and I’m really, so, SO sorry!” By the end, he was a little teary-eyed.

Caleb stared, silent and motionless where he remained for the best part of a minute.

“Cay?” Kai prompted nervously, sniffing a little as he regained his composure. “Sorry, was that… wrong?” he asked anxiously.

Caleb shook his head.

“So I was right!” Kai stated.

Caleb nodded.

“Are you not talking cos you’re worried if you do, you’ll cry?” Kai asked, venturing a one-sided smile.

Caleb nodded again.

“Want me to hug you so you don’t have to talk at all?” Kai asked, breaking into a full grin as he knelt closer to Caleb.

Another nod, followed by a quick lean towards Kai, gripping onto him tightly. It was a solid five minutes before either of them moved, but as Caleb loosened his grip, Kai pulled back a little to sit down onto his feet, letting his hand casually rest on Caleb’s leg.

Caleb stared down at Kai’s hand for a moment, taking a few deep breaths before he reached out and took hold of it with both hands. He finally managed to bring himself to stare into the other boy’s eyes as he said, “I didn’t cry at my own gran’s funeral because of Kieran. When I… snuck out, I… I had this picture in my head of what was going to happen.” He dropped his gaze, staring down at the hand he was holding. “You were gonna follow me and… and we’d talk and you’d say some… adorable, perfect thing and let me know it was okay to just… be me, and I’d finally cry and you’d just make everything better.” He sighed heartily as he looked back at Kai’s face and went on, “When you didn’t show up and I came to look for you and found you… doing what you were doing, I just… I felt so stupid and weak and pathetic.”

Kai sniffled slightly and said, “I’m sorry I made you feel that way!”

“No!” Caleb said sharply, shaking his head. “You didn’t MAKE me feel anything. You’re not responsible for my feelings, I am and… I don’t wanna keep hiding form them. I wanna just… feel them, like you do!”

“I’d say you’re doing a pretty good job of it so far,” Kai said, reaching out to stroke Caleb’s shoulder.

Caleb chuckled a little as he nodded, but the smile accompanying it quickly dropped as he said, “I’m sorry for ignoring your messages and… and not talking to you for so long. I know I only have myself to blame but… I’ve really missed you!”

“I’ve missed you too,” Kai said with a meek smile, “And not just for the dares!”

Caleb laughed at the comment and leaned forward, wrapping his arms around Kai as he tackled him, the two boys ending up side-by-side, tangled up in each other.

Kai let out a sigh of contentment as he felt Caleb at his side. It felt so amazing to be back with him again. It felt… right!

They cuddled together for a few comfortably silent moments before they said in accidental unison, “I need to tell you something!”

“D’you wanna go first this time?” Kai asked with a smile.

“Nah, it’s fine,” Caleb replied, looking a little anxious, “You can go!”

Kai was a little terrified as he contemplated what he was about to say, but his morning with Miles had emboldened him so he pushed forward. “Umm, so… it turns out I’m actually… gay,” Kai said shakily, “And I know that’s hardly a big shock…”

“Yeah, I was gonna say!” Caleb sniggered as he sat up.

Kai rolled his eyes as he sat up too and said, “Yeah, well, I am, and… I kinda think I have feelings for someone!”

“Yeah?” Caleb replied, tensing up a little.

“And I’m pretty certain he likes me back,” Kai continued, though he did shoot his phone a brief look of concern.

“Yeah, he probably does!” Caleb nodded.

“And yesterday… we kissed!” Kai said, smiling again at the memory.

Caleb looked both deflated and momentarily confused.

“Me and Luca kissed and… I think I really like him and… yeah, he’s a guy and so am I and… yeah, I should probably stop talking now, right?” Kai rambled nervously. It had felt pretty scary just telling Miles, but having just got Caleb back as a friend, he felt like he had suddenly risked messing it back up if Caleb didn’t take the news well.

“That’s… that’s amazing! I’m so happy for you!” Caleb stated, forcing a smile.

“Thanks,” Kai said, taking a few breaths to calm down now that the fear had passed. “Oh wait, your turn now!” he requested.

“Oh, yeah, umm…” Caleb said absently, “I was just gonna say…” He paused, thinking quickly before he finished, “Ellie says hi! Yeah, Ellie says hi and… and she hopes you’re… all okay!”

“Aww, that’s nice,” Kai said with a smile. “Well tell her thanks and I say hi back!” he offered sincerely. “So… is this it?” he asked curiously, “Are we good?”

“If I’m forgiven for not talking to you,” Caleb said sheepishly.

“You are if I’m forgiven for hooking up at the funeral!” Kai replied jovially.

“Fine, I suppose so,” Caleb said jokingly.

“Great, now we just gotta find Leo and it might be time to get the dare bag out!” Kai said eagerly. As he saw Caleb raise his eyebrows, he grinned and added, “What? They’re fun! You really think I’d still be doing thjem if I wasn’t TOTALLY into them!?”

“You are SO weird!” Caleb said with a bemused headshake, “Never change!” Moving to sit more casually, he thought for a moment and asked, “Can you even keep going with the dares? What about Luca?”

“Yeah, I… think he might be okay with me doing them,” Kai said, grinning dopily as he thought about how excited the other boy had been from hearing about his escapades.

“Then yeah, let’s get that bag out. It’s been nearly 24 hours since a rando saw you naked!” Caleb joked.

As Kai laughed at the comment, there was a knock at the door. Bounding off the bed to open it, and expecting to find an impatient Miles waiting to come back in, he froze as he found Luca standing there.