a tiny shoutout (Patreon)

small thanks [at random i know] to cheebs [chibi] and lunar [her pal she introduced me to] for being around and hanging out with me lately, spending time with me, letting me vent, venting on me, etc. we have a really nice triangle of friendship growing and it makes me really happy. i always strive for equality and honesty in every relationship I have [yes, friendships are relationships] and for the first time in what feels like forever, I have achieved something working towards that.

so i do do random art and gifts for these people, perhaps shocking many of my other "friends" or even my bf, but I do it because theyre giving me something no one else is. honesty, feedback, support, logic AND emotional involvement. really, all my bases are being covered by them. if my life outside of my friend circles could somehow be less shitty, then I would be a very happy person.

it's nice to see someone i just met, grow a little more open and vocal about their own wants and needs every day, from input from cheebs and a tiny bit from myself. and it feels really nice to be a comfortable space for both of them to come to when they need to vent, and it's nice that I know I can do that too. 

just in general happier, at least on the friend side of things. my IRL is actually really been shitty, super shitty but at least i have people who want to spend their precious time with me. and im worth more than just my artwork, or a trophy. it's really fulfilling to feel this way.