Diary of a Mindfucked foot boy- Part 16 (Patreon)

24/02/2021

A nice gentle day today. Been taking the opportunity of being off work to recharge a bit and it has been a good day. As it’s Wednesday the next instalment of the previous diary has been uploaded onto Patreon, and like before it has been fun to read it over again and revisit those kinds of feelings and events that had such an impact. Unbelievable to think all that was a month ago now! Wow! How the time flies! I’m very much looking forward to reading what folks might say about this week’s post, if anything.

Mistress and I have chatted a little throughout the day, and even though it has been brief it has still had a marvellous effect on me on account of her kindness and support and insight. Whenever I talk about a project or whatever I might be doing she is always very supportive and encouraging, makes me feel like I can take on anything. I also watched the video she made me to give myself a boost and it was a divine feeling…just a constant current of positivity. I value that enormously. Her help and effect on me are unlike anything else. Chatting with her about anything is a positive boon, and when we play it just goes onto a new level, deeper into my core where I am my open and most complete self to the person I belong to.

Another great night in terms of conversation and interaction on the Discord channel too. It does my heart so much good to be writing that kind of thing so often in these entries now. I love being a part of this community and I always learn so much and gain new insights into various topics and also into myself. What a wonderful influence it has been and continues to be, particularly like today when a large topic of discussion has been about trance and hypnosis.

25/02/2021

What a lovely day today has been! It’s been a really nice day out and a really nice day overall too.

It started with a bit of a surprise when Mistress told me that there had in fact been a recording made of my reactions to the public story time triggering the other week. With Mistress previously having said she wished there had been one, this came out of the blue and took me by surprise. When she said it I just sat and stared at the message for a moment…I’d actually get to see it? Wow. I’ve observed myself in trance before listening to my custom track, and during sessions I’d caught glimpses of myself in the display of my own screen from time to time, but this would be different. This would be a fully aware foot boy being able to observe it all, or at least as much as possible considering that it would involve hearing the triggers Mistress used on me at the time all over again! I gladly gave my permission for it to be used and was also excited by how positive and praising Mistress’ summary of it and my reactions were. When she said we would have to do it again sometime…well…wow.

Mistress perhaps sensed this excitement as she dropped in an erotic trigger taking me by surprise, and I outlined a little some of the thoughts that had been with me since it happened, in particular going over what might have happened if other triggers had been used. Mistress of course holds all the cards so all I can do is react to whatever she wants me to react to being her good foot boy, but I can still ruminate on it. I imagine this leads very well into what she wants, having my mind race like that and letting all the feelings and ideas feed into, even stimulate, each other.

Afterwards we chatted a little about the new video and the ongoing effect it has had on me – it leaves me feeling boosted and positive, like things couldn’t fluster me, feeling happy and appreciative of everything I have to be happy and positive about. Everything Mistress and I share erotic and otherwise is a major part of that, of course. All the images where Mistress has the watch even have an effect now, it’s wonderful! The pictures of her feet and the watch in particular are just sublime.

The mention of pocket watches began a fairly lengthy conversation about them as it turned out, which was great fun, and included a little instruction from Mistress that I should have all the pocket watches I own with me when we come to our next session. What could that mean? I don’t know! Would she want to attach triggers to them? Or maybe she is just curious from an aesthetic point of view and wants to see them after I outlined what each of them look like. I guess we will see! Not having any fixed date for the session means that these thoughts will always be at the back of my mind to some degree until it comes along, and who knows when that is! They could be there a fair while, just taking root and developing. Again this may well play right into what Mistress wants…seems she has mindfucked me again. And it continued when she also instructed that I have all the other rings and little trinkets to hand as well…well I’m stumped on that! My thinking would be that as there are so many things she is just curious to see, maybe learn a bit more about me and understand as it were. As always I shall be the last to find out and that’s how we both like it.

After a comment about how great it would be to have Mistress’ logo on a ring (I love wearing rings), it prompted me to look at the website where I had previously had two custom mugs done for Mistress with her logo and other little nods on. I didn’t think for a moment that they would do rings or other jewellery on there, but the idea was so pleasing that I had a look anyway. And they did! Not only that though, but it turned out that they do pocket watches too! Well this sent my mind well and truly off into the realms of possibility, imagining how it would look and what it might include, and what triggers Mistress might attach to it when she dropped that little hint! The rings they do are all picture rings which didn’t look as good, and the pocket watch was far more apt anyway! My future definitely includes one of these and I can’t wait to realise that whenever it might be. Though tempting to have a picture of Mistress on it wouldn’t be right to do so, I don’t think…but with her logo and a little message on the face, there every time I open it up…good lord. My new pride and joy! And the mini mindfuck of what exactly Mistress would do once I have it now also begins.

The video from the story time night ended up being made available later in the evening. I was excited to watch it for many reasons – being able to observe the effects of all the post hypnotic suggestions more properly on me, for one. I understand that sounds a bit odd considering it’s me who experiences them as well, but to see how I react physically, to observe the shaking and look on my face, how I react when I hear a word, was very intriguing to me. Also I understood from watching it that I would not only be hearing all the triggers but now able to see Mistress as well, and along with being excited to see her reactions to the effects, it meant seeing her in her red dress! I made sure that she would be around to give me permission afterwards (or at least for me to request it) and started watching. Well…it was quite something. I was brought to the edge as soon as it started from seeing Mistress in her red dress, but I was determined to focus on the events happening in the video. It was a little two minute or so ‘preview’ of the whole thing, but it showed enough! The way Mistress was watching me, the look in her eyes and smile as she says that first word…absolutely in love with it. I could see in the video that moment where it happened, and not just because I knew about it already, any observer can see exactly when it hits me. I was so under those effects…it was undeniable in those moments and powerless to stop them. I’m not sure quite what else to say about it really, but it was very interesting and enjoyable to watch and a good insight into how great hypnosis is and how anything is possible.

Mistress made me wait about ten minutes for my release before it was allowed, and it was extremely pleasurable; not just a culmination of being on the edge for a prolonged period but of seeing those effects and everything that they implied too, of how deeply engrained Mistress and her suggestions are for me now, how it’s a fact that they will happen despite me being on a public video call. It all ended when she suggested I post a response on Discord about the experience, on how it felt to be powerless in the face of those effects and how it was to watch it back. As always I enjoyed doing this writing for Mistress, and it helped me understand and sift through the experience more clearly. I am so blessed and fortunate to experience these things, how truly wonderful it is.