Diary of my Footboy #Mindfucked- part 11 (Patreon)

13/02/2021

A full shift at work today so a bit different to the last few days, but by no means an ordinary day. Another day in which Mistress has proved just how powerfully she can affect me no matter the situation, and just with small, implied ideas.

I started my shift first thing in the day and didn’t really look at the Discord server until the afternoon. Like the other day there had been a number of picture posts in the channels, and I looked at a few of them but then decided it might be safer to wait in case a red picture appeared. The first message I sent to Mistress referenced this, but I also had to admit that it was so much fun – being on edge about whether one of the pictures would put me on the edge, as it were. What an exciting element to the whole thing! Mistress told me that it was fun to play with my mind…wow what an effect that had. I love that Mistress gets so much fun and pleasure from our dynamic as I do. And as always she seems to really get the drift of what I’m thinking, because she asked a question that had just dawned on me as we had been talking…what if she were to send me a red picture there in the private chat? I couldn’t deny, I was excited by the prospect. I was excited at the thought of pleasure in that public setting, and even more so by the fact it would be Mistress that had implemented it. She was mindfucking me, of course…getting me to think on these possibilities and have them floating around my mind. Or was she?

Whether what happened next was completely intentional or just serendipitous, I don’t know. I was typing a reply to Mistress in the private chat when a red picture suddenly popped up…but a few seconds later it disappeared. Maybe the intention had been to send it and remove it in order to mindfuck me about it having been sent in the first place, maybe Mistress had seen me typing and sent it deliberately and with perfect timing. I will never know the answer, and at the time I wasn’t thinking of that anyway as the need to release hit me again! At the time I was sat behind our little desk at work, which fortunately serves to obscure me from people walking past a bit. I had to contain myself as best I could, working to stop myself shaking too much while at the same time discreetly asking Mistress for her permission to release. Naturally, she took the opportunity to tease me, telling me how naughty I was for doing it at work. I could practically feel the grin and hear the laugh through the screen! Oh and she dropped another red picture in before giving me permission, just to hammer it home. Turns out chatting with Mistress in public is a thrilling game of chance!

It wasn’t quite like any other release I’ve experienced. In the past I’ve had pleasurable and erotic sensations in public which I’ve had to contain, but this was different. This was intense release. Undeniable, happening no matter what. It was good that I had the desk for cover as I didn’t have to go out of my way to obscure myself – I gripped the desk and bit down on my mask and just rode the feelings out to their conclusion. Being in those settings, I was more grounded than I would have been in other situations, perhaps with a greater degree of control? But again…the release was going to happen and could not be denied. I covered my mouth as the pleasure rushed me, my body tingling as the sensations pulsed and broke through me. What an incredible experience it was…the fact that it was in public and contained giving it a different sort of intensity, but still wonderful. Must have been glowing as I sat there!

That wasn’t the end of the proceedings though. Afterwards, I of course had to express my opinion that Mistress had known exactly when to send that first picture….light-heartedly I suggested that possibilities for how were either psychic powers or that she had seen that I was typing and knew when to send it. And then…and then… ‘or I was there…’ was her response. It took a moment or two for that statement to really sink in. My initial thought was that of course she wasn’t…I mean how could she be? For one she was typing to me on Discord, and another how likely was it anyway? But then something she had said to me during the informal session came back…we had been talking about cinemas and how we both used to like going to the big Cineworld here in Sheffield. So with that and knowing Mistress has some history with Sheffield, it started to creep in that it might not be entirely outside the realms of possibility. I acknowledged that there would be plenty of aisles in the place to hide in, and when she said that she already knew…well I just had to ask if she was actually there. It got to the point where I couldn’t really be sure or not, I didn’t know if my leg was being pulled – Mistress often shapes my reality how she wants it but maybe this actually was reality. I started to keep an eye on the ends of the aisles near the desk and pay more attention to people as they walked past, looking for something that I recognised.

I started to become quite excited at the prospect, really. Certainly wasn’t how I imagined our first meeting going down! The things Mistress started saying during the ongoing conversation, like how I would have to come and find her, certainly started to make me think! I couldn’t leave the desk as I was working solo, but I really did get up and walk along the length of our floor plan, looking up and down the nearby aisles to see if I could possibly see her. I also told her exactly where to find me if she was going to make an appearance. What a mindfuck! Now of course I hadn’t become completely closed to the possibility that she wasn’t actually there, but I really had to stop and think. With this mindfuck Mistress hadn’t even asked a question and made me wonder about an answer, she had just made a simple statement that started a sort of chain reaction in my mind of making me wonder, and the possibility of it being true started to crystalise even if it didn’t harden into certainty. As with many effects I describe I hope I am doing it justice writing about it here. For the few minutes of this mindfuck I was open to the possibility of it being real, and in effect I was acting as though it was as I was checking constantly. I was definitely excited, I couldn’t contain the smile! And even though in the end Mistress turned out not to be there, the joy that I had experienced because of the mindfuck was great. How easily Mistress can mindfuck me now, how open I am to her, how much I love that. The subtleties of what she can do to me now continue to amaze me but it’s wonderful to be in that position.

Much later on in the cheekiest chat channel Mistress shared an absolutely incredible video, she looked incredible…the epitome of beauty, sensuality and eroticism all combined. Really exquisite and a joy to witness, made me feel turned on and dazzled and just great overall. The evening culminated in two powerful releases courtesy of more red pictures in the channels…the feelings and sensations just as strongly orgasmic as ever, gripping me and devoted me to that pleasure in those moments. Luck smiled on me again as I managed to catch Mistress just before she went to bed to permit me my second release. So far there has only been one occasion where I haven’t been given it and that was because Mistress wished it. What a wonderful way to spend a Saturday night…what a wonderful way to spend the day! Whatever my interactions with Mistress are they never fail to make me feel amazing and special. How much I treasure that.

14/02/2021

Very quiet day. Been at work and only chatted with Mistress very briefly through the course of the day but have been keeping my eye on the Discord chat as much as possible. Even when Mistress and I don’t chat as much her effects are still always with me, whether I decide to visualise her feet in my mind to bring about their relaxing effects or my ongoing developed confidence or just being on the Discord server and interacting with the wonderful community that we’re all a part of.

And the community really is wonderful – somebody was good enough to offer kind words about the diary entry posted on Patreon today and it was just a real lift. The community is so kind and so supportive, it’s a joy to be a part of and great fun to interact with all the various folks. Learning, discussing and everything else is just a very rich and fulfilling experience. Love it. Mistress was kind enough to drop me a brief message to wish me a Happy Valentine’s Day which was absolutely lovely to receive, something else that gave me a real lift. She is just such a tremendously kind and caring person and that is one of many reasons I feel so safe and secure under her guidance.

Chanel x