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Ruslana 

Some very bright and beautiful days began in my life. Sincere and interesting people appear on my path, new desires arise and old ones are remembered (that have long been dusted somewhere in the darkest corner of my consciousness), I want to explore, study, get to know, discover the world for myself again. And it was at this moment that tension and misunderstanding with my boyfriend appeared... We broke up. But the story is not fully about that.

I haven't particularly shared my inner feelings in the relationship with you and I won't, because you don't need to listen to my whining.

I just want to say two things:

1) I have never felt as cool in a relationship as without them. And that makes me sad. That I did not learn to choose a partner correctly or to communicate with him correctly.

2) It is still difficult for me to lose people - to say goodbye to them. Especially when you have known each other for a long time and have seen and been there during each other's transformations. For me, this is what makes people close. So when we have to say goodbye, I lose the "closeness" of which there is so little in my life. And let that "closeness" be with incomplete acceptance of each other, and let that "closeness" often hurt you, but it was still "closeness".

But as said by all the girls I know who also just broke up with guys - it's just retrograde Venus and it's always for the best)

It is very strange that the most pleasant stage of my life coincided with the breakup of a relationship.