Selfportraits (Patreon)

I apologize for the long silence.

My trip to Ukraine turned out to be too difficult physically and mentally.

Many things that I planned and completely forgot to squeeze my rest into this schedule. I'm already squeezed like a lemon, and it's only been a week.

I hoped that inspiration would come to me at the time of filming. and now I'm in Kyiv, and now the girls are writing to me about filming, and now I'm already filming... and I'm not getting any satisfaction. I began to get the impression that I was bored with photography. And it scared me a lot. Photography has been my life for a long time. And if it doesn't happen, I'll just be devastated. 

But already yesterday there were glimpses of inspiration and satisfaction on the set. It was a commercial shoot with a girl who wanted portraits in clothes. Usually I don't get a kick out of this kind of shooting, but this time something changed. And already today I decided to take self-portraits in the studio - and I also got high from the process...

I think I need to stop for a bit. Go deeper into yourself with the help of the same self-portraits even... and learn to hear myself again. And maybe more often shoot people in clothes)

Another interesting realization came to me. I am offended at my "child". I am offended that I allowed myself to be offended, kept silent, did not defend my position, was too quiet and modest as a child. In the coming weeks, I will try to make peace with my inner child. I will let go and forget my resentments

Another question

You often ask me about videos. And I'm thinking of starting to share my attempts and mini-sketches with you via the Telegram app. I will create a closed group to which I will add you personally using your phone number or nickname. Perhaps I will add another level of subscription, which will include photos and videos... Please tell me if you use such an application and are you interested in such a format?

P.S. This is a shoot from my first trip to Kyiv (in October)... Back when I was shooting almost every day and couldn't stop. I hope to return to that inner state soon)