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Well... Last weekend I had an exhibition in La Rochelle. And it could have been the best weekend this year (after the trip to Tenerife) if I hadn't been so nervous all the time (the day before leaving Barcelona and until the opening of the exhibition) that I was sick. I was very nervous. I tried to talk to myself, to find the reason for my excitement... I explained my fears to myself and tried to dispel them... but nothing worked - I understand with my mind but not with my heart (

All my experiences turned out to be a complete delusion - everything went better than I imagined... I was afraid to speak with the guests because my English is not the best (especially when I am nervous and when I need to describe my thoughts in depth) - it was almost not necessary to speak with them, because the French are not lovers of other languages and few people spoke English there. I was worried that I would stand aside and not get into the art party, but my art agents periodically introduced me to different people, sometimes translated some compliments in my direction, and somewhere in the middle of the exhibition, one of the guests turned out to be a girl from St. Petersburg, and I was able to at least talk to someone normally )

Other days I walked around La Rochelle alone and enjoyed the solitude. Still, such therapy should be done sometimes - take a ticket somewhere (you can even go to the nearest city) and just go alone with your thoughts. It helps to return to yourself, to start listening to yourself again ...

I returned from the trip very inspired. I wanted to create more thoughtfully, I wanted to do more with my physical and psychological health, surround myself more with worthy inspiring things.

PS You can congratulate me) At the opening, a Parisian collector bought one of my works)