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Kateryna Prekrasna

I returned to Kyiv) The week in the village gave me many new insights - good insights. I arrived full of energy and desires for new communications, filming, plans. But I want to share two slightly strange and at the same time interesting things....

- I noticed that over the last month, I began to often face aggression from strangers in my direction... no one hit me) but aggressive mood or phrases echoed in my direction. I wouldn't pay attention to this, because people are different... but something is too concentrated in such situations in one month. I still don't understand what the universe is telling me.... And I also don't yet understand how not to transfer these negative energy discharges to myself. Because in fact, these "unfair situations" really burden me.

- Something else happened to my perception of men. I'm fine being alone, without a relationship. All the dates I went on during this time were with quite interesting men, but after an hour of communication, one thought crossed my mind: "what im doing here?".

I don't need a man for sex, I don't need a man who will solve my problems, I don't need a man who will understand me completely (I know it's impossible, I should first understand myself).... but I remember my late boyfriend more and more often . He wasn't perfect and our relationship wasn't perfect either, but what I felt from our first meeting was that he was interested in me as a person. And he gave me full confidence that he would support me in any hypothetical negative or positive situation.

Now it seems that men go on dates just to not be alone - to eat dinner not alone, to fall asleep and wake up not alone, to eat salmon scramble not alone either. They don't care who exactly will share it with them.. just if not themselves. At least I got that impression. I want to be wrong.

(and don't think, I'm not generalizing all men...maybe women did this too...Or maybe I just haven't met the same man in real life)