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Aleksander Stojanov

I'm still sick. It's been exactly two weeks and my cough still won't go away... I've already been to the doctor, she told me that everything is fine, I just have to wait, because there are no complications with the lungs or trachea. I resisted this disease for a long time, but one day the right side of my neck and shoulder got stuck. I don't know if the nerve got pinched or if the muscles got inflamed. And on this day when it happened, my friend and I were planning to spend the day in the botanical garden. And when I told her what happened to me, she assured me to come anyway and she offers to conduct a "rape" ceremony for me. Who does not know "rape" is a magical mixture of medicinal plants processed in a special way - by manual grinding, drying or smoking. It is used for quick entry into meditation. (at least that's what she explained to me))). And she said that with the help of this ceremony you can recover faster - because all diseases are psychosomatic.

Well, I was scared, because this is something new for me, and besides, I'm also a person who likes to control everything. It was interesting and scary at the same time. But I promised myself not so long ago to follow my curiosity.

So we held the ceremony ... But I will not delve into all the states that I experienced there ... I will only say that the flow of thoughts stopped and I returned to myself, felt my body, my presence here and now and received an answer to my question - Why doesn't the disease let me go - "Accept reality."

For several months now, I have been in some kind of internal struggle, tension... I don't know where it came from. And then, when I heard this answer, I realized that I was resisting everything that was happening too much. It's enough to just relax and let everything happen - let the disease be as long as it needs to be, let the plans fall apart, let people leave my life, let people come into my life - don't allow it, just accept it as it is.

So I am now learning to accept reality with total relaxation.