Raffles, Pending Raffles, Dev Logs, and more (Patreon)

So I'm not going to recap my "why I feel terrible" post I made on Tumblr. You can read that here. 

This post is specifically for my Patreon itself and my Patrons.

First of all, I said last month I am removing the Patreon raffles, and I never got around to it. They are being removed, for real, shortly after this post is going live.

Speaking of raffles, I really, really apologize for everyone who has pending raffles. Two of them are close to finished, but I just legitimately don't think I can bring myself to finish them. It's honestly less the work itself now, but more the fact that every time I try to work on them, it just reminds me of how much I've let everyone down. Those raffle animations have become a monument to my failure, and they're just symbols of misery to me now. I can't look at them, let alone work on them.

I am cancelling all outgoing Patreon raffles. I feel fucking horrible for this, but hey, now's the best time to do it, because I am already feeling horrible as the linked post above describes.

As to dev logs, I apologize for not makin any last Wednesday (or the Wednesday before). I sincerely intended to, but things just didn't work out. I've been working on lots of little things - and things I intended to have done weeks ago - but complications with my voice actresses (sick, offline for weeks, etc) have stopped at least 3 projects dead in their tracks. I wanted to just release them and show them off, and so not bother with a dev-log when they were going to be posted a few days later, and, yeah.

There won't be any devlogs until probably February. This isn't by choice, but by necessity as a result of my time back with my folks. Beyond the fact I can't comfortably use a microphone to talk about my porn endeavors in the room literally next to my "please-let-Trump-win-and-get-Obongo-out-of-office" hyperconservative parents, I just don't get the time to work on anything - I have basically a revolving-door of friends who haven't seen me for months making time to spend time with me, on the days that my folks don't have plans to spend time with me.

To give you all an idea, I had 3 friends come over at 11:55AM noon yesterday. They didn't leave until 3:55AM in the morning today, EG ~14 hours. That is a typical day for me, on the days my folks don't have plans for me.

I perfectly understand if you, as Patrons, are disgruntled with how slowly my work has been going and will be going, and you are completely justified in withdrawing your support from me, either permanently or until things get going again.

Frankly, right now, I don't feel I deserve your support. I feel I've let you all down.

And I feel fucking terrible about it all.

With all that being said, happy holidays, everyone.