Is it this hard? (Patreon)

I think after all this time. I've found happiness in someone else's effort. It's only taken 30 years to begin to appreciate the effort someone else has shown. Maybe it's cause I have put effort into my own dream which is paying my bills or maybe it's cause it's a friend I truly respect. But I feel truly like I can believe and appreciate in a friend efforts.

Am I slow or is this really this difficult?