the dolls are done and an idea (Patreon)

my loves

if you came - how are you?? how was it?? are you holding up ok? how did all of you like the shows, adorable woodstock and the rainstorm? did you have bears at your air bnb??? tell me stories please

i would post more of the epic photos right now but i am dead

these shows made me the most dead and the most alive i have ever felt in my life

dolls night 3 is over …. once again we left our souls and blood on the stage ….and i woke up exhausted and basking and with an obvious graceful solution to several problems waiting on a platter in my head.

my lost has toppled and piled up again (long story), we lost a few key members of our team this week (long story, but everyone’s ok).

i am about to be drowning in 1,500 photos and videos to organize and i am processing 10-17 long stories to weave together about what’s happened over the last few weeks and over the last few nights. i have wanted to write so badly about all of this and have had no time.

i want to WRITE

it’s also been lightly stressing me out that i don’t have a piece of content to release for november. i was going to choose a good question from the ASK AMANDA advice column and start writing in a few days when i’ve recovered from these shows and get my emails and texts up to speed and my kitchen cleaned….

then in occurred to me:

oh you fool….why the fuck not just write a big, beautifully threaded piece about the dolls and just Thing it. it’s going to take me a week or two to assemble and create that piece, especially with all the photos to sort through, and the graceful solution is to simply spend my time on what’s actually wanted to come out of my writing-head instead of to switch tacks randomly. i know i don’t need to ask for your blessing but here i am sort of asking. but while i’m at it, and especially if you were AT the shows: questions please. i will try to answer or respond to any questions, feelings or thoughts you have …. in the piece. it’ll be a long one. there is just so much to say.

hit me

hit me

hit me

i am reading the comments

but

summary:

these were the best shows of my life

and i love you.

so

much

see many of you in a few hours at the brunch - and REMINDER !!! my friend father nathan monk is going to do a book signing at the golden notebook bookstore at 1;30pm, that’s about a 2 minute walk from the venue right in the village. COME after the brunch ….or come if you’re not coming to the brunch

also if you are wondering how and why i am awake at 8am after playing a rock show that epic i will tell you

ash gets the bus at 8am and i cannot turn off my internal mother sleep schedule

i am simply fucked

xxxx a

main photo by krys fox

this one by me last night right when the doors opened