i just thought i’d tell you that… (Patreon)

….i just wrote a new song and it is very very good.

it’s been almost a year since i started to write one, much less finished one.

the last thing i sat down and wrote from start to finish was “the ballad of the new york times” (which has still been released only to patrons, and is here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/58011667). that was in…july. it’s april.

i figured i would take a moment to come here and tell you what that feels like.

it feels like taking a shower and eating a meal and drinking a galllon of water after a month of being stranded in the desert.

it feels like this picture.

sometimes i get so lost in other peoples problems that i forget what i am capable of doing.

i am also aware that if hina and lil hadn’t said yes last minute to ash going over for a three-hour play date with aya, this song would simply not exist. i had exactly three hours to write it. and so i did.

please cue Last Scene of Breakfast Club score. i’ll try to record it before i leave here.

it is a love song to this country. a complicated love song.

it had to be written.

i’ll try to play it at the upcoming goodbye shows and i’ll try to take a video. (the shows are SOLD OUT by the way! they sold out in less than 12 hours - but stay tuned, we are trying to add a third show on sunday because holy fuck).

god i love you all.

writing a good song fixes so much for me. it’s strange. writing a good song is like…a rope that i can throw to myself to get out of the dark churning waters and back into the boat.

having you all as patrons helps me write.

i know you are there, on the shore, waiting to listen.

i cannot thank you all enough for being in my life.

thank you.

thank you.

🏝♥️

afp