bushfire benefit day 1 (Patreon)

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hallo loves 

greetings from the kitchen floor literally. 

art is hard. 

everybody forgets or doesn’t really know how hard and weird it is to actually be in the studio making the thing and doing the same vocal take 16 times to get it right and then still you listen back and you got it wrong. there are some days at my job where i barely understand what i do while simultaneously knowing that my job is just really fuckin weird and whatever the weird things are, i am good at them. 

taking feelings and synthesizing them and doing them into a microphone while people twiddle dials. i got home from the end of today and went out to a late bite with neil after 8 straight hours of recording and i cried at the restaurant. i told him i had never made a sad song that made me so sad that it gave me the heebie jeebies. i asked him if that had ever happened to him. if he had ever written anything so dark that it came out and he looked at it and went “holy fuck that came out of me”. 

he told me yes,

that’s happened. 

that was nice and made me feel less alone. i am glad i am with someone who understands how weird my weird job is. my day was amazing. i worked really hard. my studio crew were also unbelievably supportive while i went through the dark of recording my tasmania song in real time. thank you to xanthea o’connor for assisting and taking this photo and to anna laverty behind the sound desk and on main engineering duties. i fled back to my four year old and she back to her four and one year old. we can’t believe our lives. 

some moments like recording this tasmania song feel like black magic. who knows what’s good or bad. it feels like living in a haunted house that you made. i also recorded the song that xanthea posted late last night because it worked it’s way into my head and felt like the right one to do first. i learned it this morning and stared tracking it 20 minutes after i learned it. why not. 

back at it tomorrow morning. stay with me. 

i wanted to get to 7 songs today. i got to 2. i added an extra recording day tomorrow. i was supposed to catch up on email. fuck it. if i get at least 2 more songs done tomorrow we have a patreon bushfire EP. 

we will go fast.

 fast is good. fast is real. 

i love you all and also i spent every free studio break listening to SMOKO by the chats so whoever sent that you are my new hero

https://youtu.be/j58V2vC9EPc

I’M ON SMOKO

SO LEAVE ME ALONE. 

you’re welcome

i hope it also stays in your fucking head all week 

xx

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