a studio update, covered in phlegm. (Patreon)

hallo loves.

$5/bonus content folks, i owe you a post with some "house of eternal return" goodies. it's en route.

all:

you know that i'm in the studio and lonely and frustrated when i decide to do something that has nothing to do with my record, or anything else that's important right now, and decides this morning on twitter to start a book club. i'll post about it soon, i have many ideas. 

you all IN? who's in? 

tap out some ideas...but i'll put together a bigger better Book Club post when i have time in the next few days.

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here is a round-up of my feelings on twitter:

and a small conversation with neil, which made me dance and cry:

you know that neil and i aren't around each other when we tweet at each other a lot. 

@amandapalmer if you aren't already following.

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oi vey.

it's been a frustrating few days. i landed on monday night, a week ago, in LA, and i had a wicked, wicked headcold. i almost puked in hte car to the air bnb and collapsed, i was too dead to move for about a day. i'd just been pushing too hard on the other end. luckily, i had two full days off. that was tuesday and wednesday. we were supposed to start thursday. i slept. i hydrated. i drank the teas. i slept more. i limped to a yoga class and rolled around. i ate all the garlic. 

it wasn't enough. i asked john if we could start the recording a day late. we put off the piano rental. (the studio that we're using doesn't come with a nice grand piano - we are renting one at a grand a day, no pun intended).

it wasn't enough. i got into the studio on friday and my nose was still running and my voice was at about 60% capacity. we tried tracking a few things, but there's almost nothing we can do on this record without recording the vocals live. we were screwed. we slogged along, trying to do piano takes without the vocals and failing.

i spent a lot of time blowing my nose. after slogging through friday and saturday, we decided we were just wasting time and wearing me down, so...we took yesterday off. i slept 11 hours. i ate some soup. i soaked in a tub. i made a chiroparctor appointment. i tried to answer some email. i tried to finish writing a song for the record in my head. my head is not co-operating.

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someone here introduced me to mucinex. it's weird. but it works.

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this is me, in the studio, pretending i am screaming. i am not screaming.

it's weird.

when it's the record label's money, it all feels different.

when it's your own $3,000 going down the drain because there is a huge 8 foot piano sitting there, paid for but not getting used, it's way more damn frustrating. 

but there's also this:

i have been feeling very differently about this record for so many reasons.

first of all, this is the first solo SOLO record i've made since Who Killed Amanda Palmer, when i was all on my own-some at ben fold's studio in nashville bak in 2007. i remember it now, that lonely feeling.

making a solo record is lonely. it's really quiet in there.

john and i track, and we talk, and we eat, and really nothing else happens. it's like constant crickets.

second of all: 

this music is so fucking sad. i have to keep us entertained. so there are a lot of filthy jokes going from the studio to the control room all day. it is the only way i can survive all the sad.

we talked a lot today about the "peak emo" moment of "bigger on the inside" and i drew a chart for john. 

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but also.....third of all.

this is the first - big, solo - record i am making while on patreon.

i am so aware that all of this is happening by the Grace of You. the food i eat, the lovely little casita air bnb i am staying in, the kale i cook as i wake by my lonesome at the crack of dawn (i'm still jetlagged). 

the piano rental. the cost of john, and the studio.

all of it. it's being funded by you.

it feels different, somehow, than the kickstarter...that was all a moonshot, i made the record before i created the kickstarter to put it out.

this time....we're all in.

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i bought a bluetooth speaker for practicing.

you can peek at the songlist there on the piano....if your eyes are good.

i am also hoping to do a webcast from the studio - and i think i'll make this one an OPEN webcast to the whole patreon for a change - not just to the webchat tier, because you are all so instrumental in this moment.

webchat tier - i'll make it up to you somehow :)

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meanwhile....wish me luck in there.

we slog forth tomorrow.

please remember how much your patronage means to me...it's the wind beneath my goddamn wings here in the studio as i figure out how to make this record as amazing as i know it can be.

it's a hard one to make.

peak emo 4eva.

xxx

a

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