❤️ We're Lonely, Not Hopeless ❤️ (Patreon)

"We might be tempted to shut ourselves away and accept a lesser life because we're scared. But I don't want that for us. Any of us. I want us to dig deep and keep trying, despite it all. We live in lonely times, but that doesn't mean they're hopeless times."

There are times where I sincerely feel that I'm never gonna be able to let myself be with someone again. I feel terrified and unloveable and like I can stand the closeness of intimacy. I can't stand to be noticed or touched or even liked. It's unbearable, but then so is the feeling of not being seen.

So then I remind myself that all that noise, all those reasons why I can't do it, is just my fear talking. And it's loud and it's scary and it seems to make excellent points, but when I'm really honest with myself, I can recognise that ultimately, I'm just making excuses for myself.

One day, I don't know when, I'll be ready. But it's not a race for any of us. So, let's take our time, feel the loneliness, find ways to enjoy your own company and know that we all feel like unloveable freaks a lot of the time - that doesn't make it true.

You got this.