What We Understand [Friends with Benefits] [Long Relationship] [Apologies] [Honesty] [Closure] (Patreon)

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'Am I sorry?... Yeah. I am.'

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Well, here you are - again. Together, a little drunk and utterly confused. This is it - your relationship legacy for the past fifteen years. Never truly on, never truly off. Just sat in the painful limbo of quiet compromise. 

This girl - this woman. You've thought of her, fought with her, raged and kissed and poured everything you had into her. So, why are you still hurting? Why is it never enough? Why isn't it there?

Is it the timing? The miscommunication? The fear of losing it all?

It's time to do what we mortals do so poorly - talk.

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This beautiful idea was originally a commission, and as you can guess I really really wanted to share it.

I realise that this kind of more 'disappointing', 'painful' and potentially 'realistic' audio is not the norm, but I also really felt that there could be something to be gained from sharing this piece. 

A lot of us have experienced relationships that we could never quite put our fingers on - 'Are we together?' - 'Should we be together?' - 'Do they even care about me or am I just convenient?'

The confusion, embarrassment and pain that can come from non-specified relationships is something that I feel very strongly about.

 A lot of people, for whatever their personal reason, are simply grateful for human touch and attention - regardless if the person giving it is right for them in anyway.  I say this not in judgement, but in recognition. We all want to be wanted. It is part of being a person - we want love, intimacy and someone who wants us for all we are. 

It is not a failure. It is not something to be ashamed of.

I felt that exploring a scenario in which both roles, listener and speaker, are filled by two people who just aren't sure why they've engaged in such a relationship, could be really helpful to some people who have experienced something similar.

I hope that this audio, whilst not exactly relaxing or comforting, can help to explore the topic in a non-aggressive (no shouting matches and fighting) and mature way that comes to an amicable end.

Sometimes, the people we have relationships with aren't always the right people. Through this audio I hope to show that this is not a failure, it is a part of growing up and recognising what you want for your own life and happiness.

Ultimately, I truly hope that by listening to this audio people are reminded of their worth. You deserve someone who loves you, fully, truly, even on your worst day - you deserve that. 

I would never want to tell someone how to live their life, but one thing that I've always believed about myself and about the people I love:

You are worth what you desire. Don't convince yourself otherwise.

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Please let me know what you think.

All my love,

Teacup