Silva's Ranting Corner (Patreon)

Before we start, lemme just say this. I am fine, I have gotten over it, I had a session with an online therapist and got over my depression, but of course, what's stressful is still stressful, so I'll just lay it out all and vent in this corner for a bit. Please bear with me.

I'll put them in easy to understand numbered list:

1. The Ancestor was sniped from us.

2. Sigma was caught using machine translation and fired as Demon Sword Maiden's main translator.

3. Relocated Nexus to Demon Sword Maiden but he failed miserably (still have to pay him for the three chapters he did)

4. Relocated Nexus to Dragon Princess and recruited Immortal Dreamer as the main translator for Demon Sword Maiden and he said he'd be able to provide all the chapters the upcoming week, so I paid him in advance since I would be on a trip the said week (still didn't get the chapters after I get back from vacation)

5. Zzonkedd was down with gastro and real life event kept him busy so he was unable to provide for Knight & Elf.

6. Recruited Aurum as a temporary translator for Knight & Elf, asked him to provide me with at least 1 ~3 chapter by last weekend or this weekend. But whenever I tried to bring up the subject of translation with him, he either ignored me or gave me vague reply (still didn't get the chapter and we're one chapter short for Knight & Elf this week).

7. Immortal Dreamer overworked himself to pay his bills but some of his employers aren't able to pay him yet until the 1st week of December since their money is being managed by the company. I agreed to pay him upfront again for the 2nd batch of Demon Sword Maiden chapters. (I have effectively paid him two months worth of chapters in advance now, both of which I still haven't received a single chapter of)

8. Then since last Saturday, I haven't been getting any sign of response from Immortal Dreamer. Now I'm just getting anxious since I'm running out of Demon Sword Maiden stockpile after this week. And I'm also really worried for the well being of Immortal Dreamer's sudden disappearance.

I've been overthinking these past few days, thinking, what if Immortal Dreamer has overworked himself and collapsed? He had a history of being hospitalized for months due to poor health condition, so that's not really out of the question.

As you can see, it has been a rather stressful week for me since I came back from my vacation. I no longer have a stockpile for Knight & Elf series, and Aurum still hasn't provided me with a single chapter as of this time. I also don't have any stockpile left for Demon Sword Maiden, and I still haven't received any news from Immortal Dreamer. I'm not worried that he will just run off with the money, he's a nice guy and I've known him for a while, I trust him, even now. I'm just really concerned about his health.

After a nice long talk with the therapist, I've been advised to change my mindset to a more positive one, so while there is nothing I can do about Knight & Elf chapters but wait, I can at least look at Demon Sword Maiden in a more positive light, despite already paying the translator, so it's still quite a bummer that I have to translate it myself, but it just means I'll be back to square one, just like the time with only me and Sigma. But this time, it is me and Nexus. I will be translating Demon Sword Maiden, while Nexus will translate Dragon Princess, then I will do the translation check for Dragon Princess, and publish these chapters as usual. So yeah, nothing has changed, it's just the same old pattern until either Immortal Dreamer gets back to us or I find a new translator for Demon Sword Maiden in the worst case scenario.