Not Dead (Patreon)

My darling patrons, I've been terrible.

By that I mean that my life has been rough AND I've been terrible about updating here, and I feel bad about that.

My triad slowly imploded over the past few weeks. I spent a lot of time and energy trying to minimize damage and sort through conflicting stories and figure out what I want and what solutions are best for everyone AND ALSO BEING REALLY FUCKING SAD AND ANGRY in varying proportions.

Between that, my crumbling apartment, transitioning to a new therapist and figuring out new health insurance stuff, I've been really fucking tired. I've had a stress headache for about a month. I'm officially done with work for the year so I'll be recovering, working on presents, my apartment, and planning for next year. I've declared a moratorium on doing emotional labor for other people until the new year. Johnny's been really good about respecting that and I've kind of been avoiding other humans so it's going well.

Despite all this, my therapist says I'm doing really well. His rubric was that I made it out of bed and got to my appointment, so my standards are a little higher than his. But it was nice to have someone say "You've been dealing with a LOT! It's ok that you're not running at top speed productivity."
I have been doing arty/crafty things but those are all holiday presents. And all the people I'm making stuff for are people who read these posts so...you'll see those later. I also was in the filming of a tv pilot and a reading of a new play so hopefully I'll be posting about those soon.