So... I Need to Talk About Mami Tomoe and Madoka Magica Episode 3 For About an Hour and a Half... (Patreon)

So... I Need to Talk About Mami Tomoe and Madoka Magica Episode 3 For About an Hour and a Half...

So yeah, that discussion video I was talking about... Here it is. I really needed to just sit down and talk about everything on my mind, everything I could think to say about this episode, Mami and... the most strange, wild, and... in the end... awful experiences I've had with a series. I don't mean to say the show is bad or even that I'll be dropping it... I mean its been an awful experience emotionally and mentally. Which i'm still not saying is bad but its bad.... you know what I mean.. It's an absurdly long one, so I totally get not sitting through it, especially after a good 20 mintues of me repeating the same concept over and over again as the outro of the last video. But for those who do care this one is meant to let you know everything I have to work with right now... my emotional state, how its made me feel both in the moment and has time has gone on, to inform of EXACTLY ALL of the outside context and spoilers I have to go off of which puts me in the mindset that I am, My confidence, my complete lack of it, some of my opinions on Mami... tho to be fair those have continued to develop over even the day after this... after that ending bit... I kind of love Mami a lot. And lastly, at the end.... covering one of the comments I got during editing.. and how my state changed from there... from sad and pained but still smiling and able to make a joke here and there... To... just... completely sick and hurting.... Again I cannot stress enough that I am not upset about that comment, regardless of its accuracy regarding Mami coming back in any form or not... I wasn't able to get my requests out in time (which i personally put on me) and even so, as i stated... to an extent... I did want it. Either way.... it somehow put the situation into a much more real tangible light, one i still sitting here a day later after sleep and work and plenty more... feel... I've been saddened by a moment like this in shows a hundred times over.... But i've never been.... just so disgusted, sickened and hurt by it.... at least not in quite this way... Its... an experience if nothing else... As for my confidence/doubt and such over Mami's future... i'm going to be, unless proven wrong or right... leaving it here. I have my reasons for belief and hope, and i have just as many if not more for a complete lack of it... So I will simply wait to see where it goes... As for right now, it doesn't really matter... if she does, while it will make me maybe one of the happiest people on earth... it doesn't change what happen, it doesn't feel... unreal any more... the emotions were felt and the pain was felt and the sickness was felt.. it was still unfair and awful and terrible and I still cried.... and if she doesnt.... Well... She was a beautiful spark in the night. One that shone bright... even if so short... so impossibly, unfairly, painfully short... Anyway, thats my piece super simplified, obviously the video itself is there for you to go into much more detail with, sorry for rambles... i'm a dumb guy. Its just who I am. I want to say a huge thank you and i love you to everyone who came back out swinging with your support both for the series returning and... for... my progressive decline here.... honestly... probably gonna be more of that considering it got 1000% worse. You guys have been amazing and I can't thank you enough. And with that i'll call it here. Hope you enjoy the video, and I hope you enjoy the series as we go along.... while i don't like my chances, here's hoping i will still be able to as well. I'll see you hopefully here next week with episode 4 and beyond. - TWITTER: https://twitter.com/ShannonLShook - DISCORD: https://discord.gg/trcJ2dZ - PATREON: https://www.patreon.com/DoubleHit - ANILIST: https://anilist.co/user/ShannonLShook/ Link to our Puella Magi Madoka Magica #animereaction playlist!: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEF2DtlWpjn1CV-IJ1bzmAk8hFmMee29k #madokamagica #madokareaction #puellamagimadokamagica