Akuyaku Reijou ni Nanka Narimasen - Chapter 382.2 (Patreon)

Mates and sins.
Gator’s Point of View
“Gator-san…”

“I… can’t.”

I moved away from Hilda's kiss. If I was going to die, I might as well have at least taken a kiss, but I didn't want to hurt Hilda…

“I will do it even if you don’t want to!”

“N!?”

“N…”

Hilda kissed me forcibly. And it was a deep one. The magic mingled quickly, and my thoughts cleared. But I devoured Hilda's lips. So sweet… I want more.

“Haah…”

It seems that not only the smell but also the kiss made her sit up… Hilda was in ecstasy. Oh… I want to see her more with an expression like this.

“Why are you…”

“Because… even though I approached you so hard, you didn't even indulge or anything .... you could have at least hugged me once!!”

I was bewildered by Hilda who started crying. Anyhow, I hugged her and patted her head first.

“No, but you…”

Even if you're a noble lady, it would be disastrous if you lost your flower before marriage…

“... Hilda, hear me out.”

I told her of my sins. I was helpless, unable to fight the nobility, knowing that innocent children were being harmed. I told Hilda of my cowardice, my cunning, and my sins. Therefore, I should never be happy. I had no right to be liked by her.
But I didn't want her to be disillusioned, so I told her that I was such a pathetic man that couldn't say no… I told her everything.

“Gator-san…!”

“Nmuh!?”

Wait! That's the part where you hit me like the nastiest man I am! Why are you kissing me!?

“I fell for you all over again!”

“...... Huh?”

Fell for me all over again?? What is she saying?

“Rather, Gator-san, I'm also a dirty woman who tried to trick you into becoming your wife, you know?”

“... That's my fault for cornering you… No, wait! What do you by tricking me? It's usually the other way around!

I don’t get it!!

“I mean, I was going to exploit the pheromones of mating to have a relationship. Worst case scenario, I was going to forcibly assault you.”

“Rather, you… since when did you know…”

“I'm a Beastwoman myself, though my blood is thin. And I've always been in love with you. Hue has always loved Gator Oniichan.”

“Hue?”

“Yeah.”

Brown rabbit ears that appeared with a bounce on her head. Fluffy shoulder-length hair… ah… why didn't I notice that… this child… was one of the children in our care. She was usually in a human form… so she was half...?

“The children who were taken in by the Rosenbergs, such as Jend, myself, and even the other children don’t hold a grudge against you, Oniichan. In fact, we all think we survived because of you. If you can't forgive yourself, I will forgive you. If my forgiveness is not enough… stay with me. Make me happy."

“A… ahh…!!”

Can I really love this lovely being in my arms? These feelings are too complicated... regret, contrition, delight, hatred, love, happiness...... Such intense emotions toyed with my brain. Tears flooded my eyes.

“Anyhow, I’m not going to let you escape, Oniichan. I, too, am at my limit because of the pheromones.”

“Hah!? Wait! Stop undressing!!”

I am over two meters tall. Hilda, on the other hand, was maybe 150 cm or so. There was too much of a difference in our physiques, but I was hit with pheromones that made me weak, and even though she was small, Hilda was a Beastwoman. In addition, because I could end up injuring her, I can’t really resist and……… I took her into my arms.

And after that, I was the worst kind of beast… getting into the groove until Hilda blacked out. Fortunately, I was a half-breed, or I would have come to my senses only by the morning... but I was so disgusted with myself that I wanted to die…

“... But…”

I put the purification on myself and Hilda, cleaned myself up, put on my clothes... and looked at the thing I had somehow brought with me.

Since she found it in her heart to forgive me, would she want this?

“... Oniichan?”

I knelt down to Hilda, who woke up.

“Hilda… I love you. It has no relation to taking responsibility. If you can forgive me then…… will you marry me?”

“Yes!”

Hilda smiled and nodded.

“'Here… I don't know if it's the right size, but… I was hoping to give it to you someday.”

It was a ring of delicate design. It was decorated with small flowers, and the reddish-brown stones that looked like Hilda's eyes, and as for why I bought it, it because rings are popular to give to those you love these days, but I couldn't give it to her before because of the meaningfulness of it.

“... Put it on.”

She held out her left hand to me. The ring fit perfectly on her ring finger.

“... I will treasure it, Oniichan! I’m happy…!”

“... Thank you, HIlda. I’m so happy now that I can’t think straight.”

“Me too…! Let’s become even happier… I love you!”

And I'd like to think it was force majeure that I got all sorts of excited again... I came to my senses and held my head again…… I feel like I can't help it because my mate is just too cute.
It's another thing that I was teased a lot later by Rabisha and Ojousama.

P.S. I happened to read the novel that Rabisha wrote about me. At first, I fainted. After that, I did my best to seriously scold her and got her to kneel in front of Jend, and without telling Jend why, Rabisha apologized. Jend seemed mystified, but there are some things in the world that are better left unknown. If possible, I also didn't want to know what “bottom” and “top” meant.

Really, how did this happen!?

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