Curiosity Did Not Kill The Cat (Patreon)

Or anyone for that matter. It simply made them stronger.

I often look back and think, “How would past versions of myself see me now?”

Would they be happy? Intrigued? Excited? Proud?

Would they see growth and changes that make them happy?

Every year I wonder these things, and every year my answer is pretty much the same.

Baby me, teenage me, young adult me, would have never seen this woman coming.

I’ve always been very secure in who I am, what I believe, and how I expressed myself. I never struggled with any of that until I was about 26, weirdly enough. A lot happened around that time (that I will certainly delve into one day) that caused me to question... kind of everything. I think since then, I’ve been trying to find myself again. To anyone looking from the outside, that probably seems impossible. While I’ve still always been rooted in my values, it was more the superficial things that got me feeling kinda woah.

Social media was one of them. Trying to figure out how I wanted to be perceived online was... tough, confusing, challenging, inconsistent, annoying AF. When I started all this in ‘09, there was no branding and no one was sharing the feels. Thank the Lort that’s over. I’m still not 100% sure what I’m doing here, but overall, just trying to help people through my own experiences.

Another major thing was figuring out my views on politics. The first time I voted, I called my dad, asked how he voted, and I did the same. That’s one of the most sad/embarrassing things I’ve ever done. What a waste to throw away my power because I didn’t take time to google a few people. 😞 I don’t really regret anything in life, but that one...haunts me sometimes. I dabbled in some activism and had some gnarly backlash one year, so I’m still trying to find my happy place in how vocal to be about which things.

Spirituality is the one thing I actually feel great about while being in this floaty space. I’ve done meditation, a reiki journey, shrooms for spiritual connection, qi gong, psychic sessions, and am currently learning about the tarot. I find validity in everything, but it’s one of those things that is so deeply personal to each individual, so I am exploring everything of interest.

I guess I’m spewing all this to say, BE CURIOUS. EXPLORE IT ALL. Be safe while doing so, but don’t hold yourself back because of the unknown. 💗

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