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To give an example of how we are changing from Monthly Schedules to Weekly Schedules. 


Life happens. Currently, I'm very sick and we have been dealing with a private family matter and quietly dealing with it, and carrying on. I did not and don't want to dump my life problems onto you guys--ever. 


But sometimes in the middle of the week I might have to take a few days off. I might have a last chance meeting with a producer. But I put off a lot of things when I know I have "content I promised you guys".


I'm no longer just "promising" content, I'm telling you exactly what I filmed, checked out, and wanted to film this week and take more suggestions for the next week!


So I'll help you all understand a bit better with a real life example.


Here is a list of all these bonus reactions I filmed while sick with Blaire. We were sick but we did it because it was mentally very relaxing and helped heal us. Starting tomorrow, I'm going to release all of these.

  • ENHYPEN 'Bite Me' Recording Behind
  • Jung Kook Live @ Audacy
  • ITZY 'UNTOUCHABLE' @ONETAKESTAGE Inkigayo
  • ITZY YEJI + RYUJIN + CHAERYEONG + YUNA Solo
  • it's LIVE: KISSOFLIFE 'Shhh'
  • TXT 'Back For More' @NPOP


Every 7 days we will just be publishing a weekly schedule like this but as an easy to read graphic. 


We're just only trying to promise one week's worth of content at a time so that we can actually stay up to date on content! There is new content, new groups, new music--ALL the time. Our old system can no longer work, it just sets us within too many "limits". 


An example would be I have been meaning to check out the new H1-KEY since I was in Korea of last year! But since I haven't seen it, I keep forgetting about it, and then I forget to add it to the schedule, and when there's already a full month's worth of content already waiting to be filmed, it's hard to "just" make an exception for one group. 


I love and care about K-Pop too be setting this monthly box around us. 


This is a huge reason why we switched over to Subscription Billing. This means:

  • you will be charged only on the day that you join, and again on the same date the next month, rather than the 1st. 
  • This was to stop viewing our life in "months" and be more present and just think "one week at a time"
  • I will be nursing a month long list based on seeing all your comments and ask what I should watch, take suggestions, on a regular basis.

Every day is a bit different. Some days I prefer to binge just one group, or one variety show. It really depends on the momentum of that episode or how good/funny it was.


Then every 7 days I'll just post what I filmed throughout that week, and there you go. It'll be a long list that I promise will be a health mix of BG/GG variety and great musical and dance content.


If you don't like what you see on the list, that's fine--just wait for next week or check back in a few! Because now you can join "whenever" and don't have to feel pressured you "won't get the most out of your patronage this month"!


But to make it easier to keep track, my main focus is to be CURRENT. So for example: our schedule on the 7th will probably look like:


-Some of the week 4 content along with a bunch of other stuff we've been wanting to watch (SISTAR19, YuYu Hakusho, a lot of SEVENTEEN stuff, etc)


On the 1st we'll post an official list of our Weekly Schedule Post Dates along with some of the big reactions that will be accompanying those posts. But for your information now:


February 7th:

  • Week 1 Schedule Drop [week 1 begins releasing immediately 2/8]
  • MAMA or Melon Music Awards
  • Taking requests for Week 2

February 14th

  • Week 2 Schedule Drop [week 1 begins releasing immediately 2/15]
  • Running Man EP 685: TXT
  • Taking requests for Week 3

February 21st

  • Week 3 Schedule Drop [week 1 begins releasing immediately 2/22]
  • JungKook 'GOLDEN' Live Concert

- - -


That's what the February schedule will look like. Listen, the truth is I have a TON of stuff I wanna and CAN do for the month of February. It's my birthday! And all I want to do is react to certain things such as...


  • SEVENTEEN's NANA TOUR
  • Running Man EP 671: V
  • Running Man EP 676: BSS
  • Golden Disc
  • Sweet Home Season 2
  • YuYu Hakusho
  • Etc...

There will always be more. There will ALWAYS be more. And heck, what I just listed is stuff I WANT to do, and even then, I might not be able to do it all because I'll still be fixing the Backlog first as priority. 


But I am prioritizing what I would like to react to FIRST, then take your requests and intentionally treat you guys to your requests and suggestions, rather than making my entire life feel like I am only reacting to what everybody else wants. 


My first week of February I'll be just focusing on fixing the backlog content and filming in between based on things that would inspire me to work even harder to get the backlog done faster. And I will do my best to have as much of the Week 4 content in that first week of drops on the 7th's schedule. That is ALL I can promise. From then to now feels like a whole life time, and I've still got a TON of things to do and once again, still a lot of other content still pouring in.


I know this is a big change, and the "unknown" is a concept NO ONE is comfortable with. But facing the unknown is the only we can ever grow as people, and I KNOW that this is the only way I can move forward and evolve; yet simultaneously feel like I'm going back to my roots and reacting for FUN.


I guess all I'm asking for is trust. And I know that I have not been consistent with my promises; and that's simply because I can't promise anymore. 


Just chill, sit back, and if you need to pause your patronage for a moment to see "what this actually means" because this explanation was still confusing? Just wait and see. 


Just experience February. 


Ever since I broke down and came clean about my mental health struggles last February, I have worked on myself non stop to figure out why I was so depressed. I apologize that it has been a years long journey like this but honestly, I started this channel on a whim.


Accepting everything has been hard. From my perspective, 2 years went by like that. I'm trying to be more present.


This is the only way for me, that I know will bring a different kind of joy and magic to the Patreon. To my YouTube. Where those notifications are no longer just anticipation, but that seolleh-im (in Korean), that excitement of not knowing what it could be, that build up not "expectation" of a K-Pop video, but instead "hope"--and those moments when your hopes are actually met. 


And for me, when I sit down in front of the camera and film, rather than "okay I gotta film this for my Patrons because they really want this!"--which is not a bad thing. It's just... After all these years, it's the ONLY thought that runs and race through my mind. That inexplicable guilt when I see a DINO video I want to react to--"ah but, I promised I'd get these and these other reactions out... OK I'll just have to film those. Damn I should do my work instead of wanting to watch DINO videos." 


I'd rather think: "Damn, I'm gonna binge a bunch of Dino for a bit. Hehe these freakin' cuties are gonna have no idea what's in store for 'em!"


The monthly calendar makes this my JOB, the weekly calendar makes this my LIFE. K-Pop is my life. 


I hope this clears things up. I hope you understand.


I love you. I wish you nothing but the same good energy in your life, I want to be here for you, and make this a much more fun, exciting, FIGHTING (heya-ji)






Comments

Amanduh

I honestly would love if you set up a week soon or even in the future just to catch up on kulture studies. There’s so many amazing comebacks me, and I’m sure other patrons, thought you’d really enjoy. I just miss mv reactions 😅

Amanduh

And I’m sorry if this was addressed in the video, I haven’t had time to get to it yet

Jaydeekatt

Okay, I wrote a bit of a novel here, but only because I genuinely want to see you succeed, so I hope you take the time to read it. — I appreciate that you’re thinking through and trying to figure out what you wanna do that’s going to work for you. I’m someone who is AuDHD (Autism + ADHD), and struggles immensely with RSD and PDA, so I think that I can empathize with you to an extent. Currently I’m recovering from burnout and it’s felt like a never-ending cycle for years now. It’s difficult coping with a disability that is largely invisible to others but paralyzing to you. For my own reasons, I’ve decided to take a break from the Patreon, but think it might be good to share a perspective that’s worth considering. I have found that there’s one thing often at the crux of most uncomfortable or anxious situations: misaligned expectations. This often stems from inadequate communication or no communication at all. It seems as though you would like to experience fewer constraints around what you watch and when. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with that, in fact feeling stuck and somewhat puppeteered is a fast track to burnout. However it’s important to not conflate what you want to do as a hobby and what you are doing for a living. The lines get blurry when they involve a lot of the same things, but drawing that line clearly will save you a lot of stress. Logically, since the beginning of human history, business has been a transactional thing; payment in exchange for goods or services. And it has always been about supply and demand. The demand comes to you in form of requests and as long as the transactional format of this platform exists, you have a responsibility to supply content to meet that demand. Yes this constraint exists, but fortunately for you; you get to set your prices along with exactly when/ how much content you publish. Now how do you balance this with being able to reclaim your autonomy and watch stuff you’re excited about? Simple, you commit FIRMLY to LESS. Rather than avoid commitment which is the model you’re currently presenting. Avoiding commitment doesn’t ease pressure, rather you might find that it adds more because expectations are ambiguous and misaligned between you and your customers. When you commit a few essential things, you get to say “Hey I really wanted to check out this new thing, so I went ahead and watched it on my own time”– that’s liberating and you should be giving yourself the space to do it. If recording and sharing the reaction is a major part of the experience for you, then it’s a beautiful opportunity to revive your YouTube. The dynamic over there is inherently different from here. It’s content people are accessing for free and can be more of a hobby space where you can consider recommendations/ suggestions, but it isn’t so transactional as here. You wanna check something out because you’re excited? Do it and put it on YouTube! Let that platform be an outlet and a space for your excitement to thrive so that you have a better balance in sustaining things here. The folks on YouTube can be your fans/ supporters or whatever you wanna call them but the people here are customers and this distinction is important to not lose sight of. Then even on here, consider inserting some guardrails to make things easier for yourself. For example, maybe have a 3-4 day window at the beginning of each month for requests and then close them for the cycle. Make it clear how many requests can be taken in each category and then it’s a clean slate for each new month; no backlogs. Most importantly, set clear expectations by saying NO to the things you’re not interested in or are unable to do. Yes this might be an RSD trigger, but it’s a sign of integrity. Some people may leave, but others might actually be drawn in by knowing they can rely on you to set clear expectations with them. People come and go regardless; it’s better to equip us with the ability to say “okay he’s not currently prioritizing what I wanna see, so I’ll step away and check back later”, rather than leaving people with a bitter taste in their mouths and hesitation to return regardless of what content you eventually put out because trust is broken. Basically what I’m getting at is that this new approach sounds like going from 1000 - 0 in terms of commitment and I don’t think it will bring the sustainable results you seek, so a clear and firm balance is much needed. Plus an outlet where you can engage with some of this content off-platform on your own terms. I really do wish you the best and I believe you more than have it in you to make this work! 💙 P.S the “quoted” comments in your post read as passive aggression/ sarcasm, so if that’s not your intention, it might be best to dial those down a bit.